Sunday, April 29, 2007

I feel rotten, but at least I'm not invisible

I don't know if I have a head cold or if it's allergies... but either way, I feel like crap. My nose is like a faucet, my head hurts, I look like I'm crying, and my throat is all scratchy and sore. I was at least able to get through our worship gathering this morning. Coudn't get too much power outta my voice by the end, but I made it.

I can't complain too much though. Isaac called last night and said he was sleeping in a carboard box in Chicago, and all they got from yesterday until today was a bottle of water and a box of crackers. It's part of the Invisible Children - Displace Me movement. It's to raise awareness for the 1.5 million people who are displaced from their homes in Northern Uganda. Looks like quite a bit of stuff on their website... and as soon as I can sit without coughing, sneezing, or blowing my nose for a few minutes I will have to look at it in depth.

Sigh.

Saturday, April 28, 2007

Comedy night

Last night we used Jane's free tickets to Snickerz Comedy Club. It was a good time. We had never been there before. Went to the 7:30 show and it was packed. Looked like the later show was going to be too as the line was way out the door when we left.

I wish I could remember the name of the guy who opened. Kevin something. I thought it was supposed to be a lady, but he was not. I liked him a lot though. At the end of his routine he made a speech about living our dreams. He said he told God about ten years ago that he would do that every opportunity he had. I liked it.

The main attraction was Mike Green. He was good too. He pranked a guy in the audience - and I'm not sure if the guy was just really drunk, or if he was not amused. He also had some guy shout out about his friend who is heading to Afghanistan. Mike lectured him a bit about heckling, and I don't think that set well with some people. I thought it was fine, because I can certainly relate to how difficult it can be to deal with someone just shouting stuff out - even if you don't mean any harm. I think everyone in the world should have to give a public speech at least once a month. But anyway... a good show.

Really glad Jane won these tickets. Not only because it would have been $9 each otherwise, but it was just nice to get out and about and laugh for awhile. I liked the place. It was somewhat small, but all night I was thinking of how neat of a church building it would make. I could have done without the smoke - which was worsened by the fact that I have a cold/sore throat/cough. Also, I don't understand how Snickerz can not have a web site. I mean, there is no excuse for a business or someone in entertainment to not AT LEAST have a myspace site. What is this world coming to? Oh well.

Peace, friends. Good day to ya.

Friday, April 27, 2007

Friend of a friend

My most-read post on this blog dealt with removing my "friend of emergent" button. Interesting that now I see it says "friend of emergent village." But anyway... I have thought about loading up the "friend of missional" button on my sidebar. I fairly well like their intents and purposes... but the whole "friend of" thing just seems a bit trendy - I dunno. Probably not. But I've been trying to keep my blog clean and all. I'm sure there are other excuses too.

But... I was intrigued to see this "friend of people" square. I saw it at Jesus Manifesto. Apparently it's not an organization, but it oughta be. Of course, if it were, I might not qualify for membership. I have felt very much like a jerk lately; and, basically, I don't think a lot of people think of me as being the friendly sort. Sure, part of it's due to my being shy, introverted, and have zip for self-confidence. I'm also terribly task-oriented, and not just a bit of a big dreamer. You know, there's that constant music playing in my head - and it's hard to turn off to stop and listen to someone. Not that I don't want to, I just can't seem to find the mode button or volume control.

I like the idea of the church simply being "people-friendly" though. Or maybe it's "pro-people." We should be FOR people, right? One of the biggest marks against the church seems to be the "us vs. them" mentality driving so many. I've driven it; been along for the ride; hidden in the trunk even. It's a cramped and uncomfortable place to be.

Well, this is goin' nowhere. Just completely lost my thought. Story of my life lately. Anyway... here's to bein' a better friend to people.

Thursday, April 26, 2007

New neil young

I don't usually listen to music in the office, but today Jane left her new cd home... so I snagged it. Live at Massey Hall 1971 was just released last month, and it contains some of my favorite songs of Neil's, and favorite songs of ALL TIME. This is vintage, classic Neil. These songs have probably had as much influence in shaping me as any other music. It was recorded during his Journey Through The Past Solo Tour in '71. I might not get a dern thing done today...

What's your sign?


Because he's such a nice guy... I got up this morning to find MR had made me this church sign. Yep, that pretty much says it all. :) Reminds me of the scene in 'The Jerk' where Steve Martin says, "He hates these cans!!!" Thanks, Mike.

Wednesday, April 25, 2007

Stupid church signs

Tom tipped me off to this church sign today. It says:
If you are too open minded your brains will fall out.

This is why I'm glad I don't have one of those signs that always has a cutesy little saying on it. Is it saying that we don't want Christians to THINK? How silly is that? As Tom said, it would be nice to post a message at one of our churches that said, "Open minded people welcome here."

Not complicated; just difficult

I think once or twice I've been told I'm a complicated person, or that I'm hard to figure out. That's not at all true. It's quite easy, really... I'm just DIFFICULT. Lady Jane figured this out long ago, and that's probably why we're coming up on 24 years of marriage and it is perhaps better now than ever. I wish I weren't like this, and I'm much better than I used to be. But...

It was kinda odd going back "home" and officiating my nephew's wedding. I have never preached or done anything of the kind in the church we attended there (not that I wouldn't, but I haven't been asked. Hmm). So this was the first time many of the people from there have seen me in the pulpit. There were also a few people at the wedding who only knew me from the bars or the factory I used to work at. It was a weird feeling how they all seemed so shocked and amazed at how nice the ceremony was. So many people were congratulating me afterwards and telling me what a nice job I did. I actually began to feel bad - like - perhaps I attracted too much attention to myself rather than the bride and groom. Honestly, I probably overdid the humor - to keep myself from getting too choked up. But I wondered what the heck they think I've been doing for the last ten years.

At church on Sunday, after the worship service, we were in the kitchen having coffee and donuts and reminiscing with old friends... and my old high school football coach came in and put his arm around me. I thought he was gonna cry, and he told me how all night (after the wedding - which he attended) he kept thinking about the time he and the assistant coaches called me into his office. This was my Junior year, after the game where I had six fumbles (I've wrote about this before). He said they asked me, "If you could do anything you want to do, what would it be?" He said they were expecting me to say I wanted to be an NFL quarterback or something. Instead, I said, "I'd like to sit on a mountain and play my guitar." I remembered this after he told me. He said it was at that point they knew they needed to move me from quarterback. I was not who they thought I was.

Funny how I had completely forgotten that conversation, but now I can remember sitting in that coaches room like it was this morning. What's weird is I'm not even a very good guitarist, and I'm scared to death of heights.

The name of the church I pastor is Fair View. It really is two words. My guess is it's because the land is so flat right here. It's a "fair" view. It's definitely not a mountain.

They say you can never go back home again. I guess it's not complicated... Just difficult.

"Hold me, Jesus, 'cause I'm shakin' like a leaf. You have been King of my glory, won't you be my Prince of peace?" Rich Mullins

My eyes are dry

I haven't listened to much Keith Green music - in fact, I wouldn't know it if I heard it. Perhaps I became a Christian too late. But I saw this lyric and... yeah.

MY EYES ARE DRY

My eyes are dry, my faith is old,
My heart is hard, my prayers are cold.
And I know how I ought to be,
Alive to You and dead to me.

What can be done to an old heart like mine?
Soften it up with oil and wine.
The oil is You, Your spirit of love.
Please wash me anew in the wine of Your blood.



Keith Green
1978 Birdwing Music
Cherry Land Music Publishing Co., Inc
from Sparrow Records album “No Compromise”

Tuesday, April 24, 2007

I don't know

This is a classic post from the late Mike Yaconnelli. Thanks, Tammie.

For those who have not left the building

Much has been written lately about those "formerly known as..." whatever. It's not that I can't sympathize.... but I ran across this poem from Andrea, and it really struck a chord with me. I have no idea who she is, but I appreciated finding this piece, especially when I did. It's called "Church Moment":
someone recently said to me
the people
formerly known as the congregation
have left the building
well
perhaps that is true a lot of the time
however
I was with some people
in a building yesterday
and we had church
we were the church
imperfect yes
but church nonetheless
the worship was stunning
the message was challenging
communion was real
there was a waiting for God
and everyone felt the weight of the wait
babes played quietly on the floor
there was a wind
a hot wind
and not all the wind was outside
when no one gets up to leave
you know God is in the house
when I came home
I was full
for the first time in a very long time

The church is judgmental & negative

The wedding was fine. Not much else to say.

Still reading Dan Kimball's 'They Like Jesus But Not The Church.' In ch. 6 were some quotes that pack a real punch.
"I did grow up in a church, but now I am a Buddhist. When I became a mother, I wanted my daughter to have a spiritual upbringing. However, I didn't want her to become like the Christians in the church I knew. They were always so negative and complaining about everything, and I wanted my daughter to be in a positive environment. I became a Buddhist since they are a much more loving and peaceful people than those in the church." ~ Jennine, owner of a beauty salon (96)
"The employees (of a restaurant) hate working that day (Sunday) because the Christians complain more than other people do, have poor attitudes, make more of a fuss and are particular about things, and don't tip. This is how we are known in our culture today." (97)

Do these convict you as much as they do me? What do you think...?

Thursday, April 19, 2007

Nothing like being home

So I made it to my parents. It's 900 degrees and my dad is complaining that it's too cold. We went to the nearest restaurant (which is a tavern) and I forget that not everybody is smoke-free. Had to be home by 8 pm - because AMERICAN IDOL IS ON! So I watched my first episode of that in years. Of course... with the tv on as loud as it will go and mom and dad yelling at one another that they can't hear what each other is saying. :) Ah... home, sweet, home.

Then this morning... the coffee pot didn't work. Argh! At least they had some instant decaf in the fridge.

Peace everyone. I don't think I can handle a revolution at the moment.

Wednesday, April 18, 2007

A nicer day (mostly)

Day 2 of this vacation was better than day 1. Even though I did cave in and look at my work email (sorry dear). But I also finally got to fly my kite. This is she at the end of her rope yesterday. I needed more string.

Last night we saw Maia Sharp (backed by superb bass player/band Darren Embry). Very nice. Great voice. Good musician. Darren added immensely. I hadn't actually heard of her before, but some pretty heavy people have recorded her music.

Sunny Taylor opened for Maia. My first time to really hear her too. Equally awesome as the headliner. She kind of takes your guts out, rearranges them, and puts them back where they should have been. I would loooooooooooove to get her to open for Jason Ringenberg July 27. Not sure how to go about doing that.

Anyway... a pretty good day of laying around not doing much of anything. I even ran OUTSIDE yesterday. But why is 3 miles so much harder outside than on the treadmill?

Jane just called and said she won the question-of-the-day on whatever radio station she listens to. So she won four tickets to a Wizards game and four tickets to Snickers Comedy Club. Cool!

Tuesday, April 17, 2007

The wonder years

Growing up happens in a heartbeat. One day you're in diapers, the next day you're gone. But the memories of childhood stay with you for the long haul. I remember a place, a town, a house like a lot of other houses, a yard like a lot of other yards, on a street like a lot of other streets. And the thing is, after all these years, I still look back, with wonder.
— Daniel Stern as the narrator, The Wonder Years (ABC TV)

Yesterday I worked out the service and message for my nephew's wedding this Saturday. Tim was the first baby I ever held. He and his siblings grew up with my kids - either we were at their house, they were at ours, or they were all at grandma's. When I was getting fitted for my tux for my wedding Jane and I had Tim with us and we got in an accident. He was less than a year old. Jane was holding him in the back seat, and when we hit the ditch she turned to protect him and broke her collarbone. He was the oldest of the group of kids, so he always seemed to be the mature one... the in-control one... the in-between one. He seemed to have a heart as big as the midwest and I hope he can retain his sensitivity as a doctor after he gets done with his residency. I always liked him, and have great respect for him. It is people like Tim and his bride-to-be Elizabeth that give me hope for the future. There is no way I will get through this ceremony without getting overly emotional. Dangit. I don't want to, but.... the memories.

And we just discovered that our long-time favorite tv show "The Wonder Years" is back on again (in the USA). I found it one night while flipping through some of the channels on our dish that I usually never go to. I thought we had a new channel - ION - but found out it is just PAX, renamed. I don't care for too much else on there, but we used to loooove the wonder years. Being born in 1962 it was like reality-tv for me. In April it began airing weekdays at 10 & 10:30pm ET/PT.

In case you were wondering about picking up the DVD's of "The Wonder Years" (like us), I hate to tell you but it ain't happenin' - due to the cost of securing the music rights. There were a few episodes released - which don't contain the original music - and they are pretty pricey.

A couple of interesting tidbits:
  • Fred Savage, who plays Kevin Arnold on The Wonder Years, is the real life brother of Ben Savage, who played the lead role of Cory Matthews in another "growing-up comedy-drama", Boy Meets World.
  • The background soundtrack heard in the series finale was actually originally produced by composer Randy Newman for the 1984 Robert Redford film The Natural.
  • There is no truth to the rumor that Josh Saviano (who played the character Paul Pfeiffer) grew up to become musician Marilyn Manson. Though Saviano - who is now a licensed lawyer in New York - thinks the idea is neat.

Message to the media

The events that transpired today in Blacksburg, Virginia were tragic. I can't believe Wikipedia already has it cited as the Virginia Tech massacre. And... you know, I don't know how the media should cover events like this. But what I do know is... sometimes... when things like this happen... we need to just mourn. It is terrible. Someone obviously had a serious problem; now a lot more people have some serious problems. And there's not always an answer. Or an immediate answer anyway. So... please... do we have to point the finger so soon? Do we have to speculate how everyone could have handled things so much better, when they're probably doing the best they know how? Give people a break. We're not news stories; we're real live people who get up each day and don't suspect a national crisis is going to be on our hands. And when it comes... we NEED to mourn. We need to mourn.

Monday, April 16, 2007

Grrh

First day of my vacation and I'm in a stinking rotten mood. Too much stuff to do and not enough time to do it. And I wanted to fly my kite...

That's the way it goes.

"His name is Carlos"

I saw this on Jim Martin's blog. Good stuff. It's from an article written by Rich Karlgaard in Forbes magazine. He quotes Nancy Ortberg:
Ortberg spoke of how her mentor, Max De Pree, former CEO of Herman Miller, engaged his workers, ‘Max had a rule for his leadership team. Every Wednesday they were to bring a brown bag lunch and go down to the factory floor, where the furniture was being made, to eat. They were to sit and listen for an hour to get to know the names of the workers on the floor and to learn about the obstacles workers were facing as they did their jobs, as well as hear about the ideas they had for future designs.’

Ortberg herself was at one time an emergency room nurse. One night she witnessed an astonishing leadership act: It was about 10:30 p.m. The room was a mess. I was finishing up some work on the chart before going home. The doctor with whom I loved working with was debriefing a new doctor, who had done a very respectable, competent job, telling him what he’d done well and what he could have done differently.

Then he put his hand on the young doctor’s shoulder and said, ‘When you finished, did you notice the young man from housekeeping who came in to clean the room?’ There was a completely blank look on the young doctor’s face.

The older doctor said, ‘His name is Carlos. He’s been here for three years. He does a fabulous job. When he comes in he gets the room turned around so fast that you and I can get our next patients in quickly. His wife’s name is Maria. They have four children.’ Then he named each of the four children and gave each child’s age.

The older doctor went on to say, ‘He lives in a rented house about three blocks from here, in Santa Ana. They’ve been up from Mexico for about five years. His name is Carlos,’ he repeated. Then he said, ‘Next week I would like for you to tell me something about Carlos that I don’t already know. Okay? Now let’s go check on the rest of the patients.’

Ortberg recalls: ‘I remember standing there writing my nursing notes — stunned — and thinking, I have just witnessed breathtaking leadership.’

(Rich Karlgaard, "Godly Work" in Forbes, April 23, 2007)

Sunday, April 15, 2007

Snowy good night - ASQ

It should not be allowed to snow after I've already mowed the yard. But we had actual accumulation yesterday afternoon and evening. It didn't ruin our night though. Had a chance to see The Andy Sheer Quartet (at right). They're not a "singing" quartet; but four guys who play good music. I was very nicely surprised. My kids had told me they were good, and I've listened to their stuff on myspace. But they were better than I expected. They're also coming to my church for July Jams - just working out the details. I am pumped. In trying to desrcribe their sound the two words that keep coming to mind are "sweet" and "mature." Hard to explain, but good to listen to.

Saturday, April 14, 2007

What is missional

On p. 20 of Dan Kimball's book They Like Jesus But Not The Church, he says:
To be missional is more than just to evangelize. Here are some ways of thinking of this term as the underlying philosophy of this book:
  • Being missional means that the church sees itself as being missionaries, rather than having a missions department, and that we see ourselves as missionaries right where we live.
  • Being missional means that we see ourselves as representatives of Jesus "sent" into our communities, and that the church aligns everything it does with the missio dei (mission of God).
  • Being missional means we see the church not as a place we go only on Sunday, but as something we are throughout the week.
  • Being missional means that we understand we don't "bring Jesus" to people but that we realize Jesus is active in culture and we join him in what he is doing.
  • Being missional means we are very much in the world and engaged in culture but we are not conforming to the world.
  • Being missional means we serve our communities, and that we build relationships with the people in them, rather than seeing them as evangelistic targets.
  • Being missional means being all the more dependent on Jesus and the Spirit through prayer, the Scriptures, adn each other in community.

Ah, yes, I think this is pretty good. Whether you like the term "missional" or not... I think this is simply being "the church."

I made the c2g bulletin board - w/ homeless j

So we're at c2g last night and one of my blog posts is stuck up on the bulletin board! I was embarrassed the rest of the night. Man... you gotta watch what you say... 'cause you just never know (not that I said anything bad about them - I love that place).

Jane and I did our usual friday night date. We went out for supper, bought a shower gift for someone, and decided "what the heck, lets go to c2g and see Homeless J. After watching this fantastic opening band - the dark room - I was standing in line to get a coffee and Jane comes up: "They have one of your blogs on the bulletin board!" WHAT!?! Sure enough. Not that it was anything special I had written. It was a post about a band I'd seen there, and how I liked the place. But it was pretty cool, even though I wanted to crawl in a hole.

Homeless J was absolutely awesome. I'd never seen them before. My kind 'o music. The singer has a get-up, and sounds like Bono (actually the band is pretty U2-ish). The guitarists were good. I really liked the drummer. And the bass player for this band is amazing. Not just because he plays a six-string bass either. Whew. I'm glad we went. A good time was had by all.

PC help... and gratitude

Just a quick little truism: gratitude gives birth to joy, and joy gives rise to generosity. And gratitude is a decision. But it's more than a single decision. It's a discipline, in the sense that training for an athletic event is a discipline. It is a single-minded focus that governs many other decisions. You don't become a grateful person by accident. It's the result of hundreds of seemingly inconsequential decisions to choose thankfulness over griping, complaining and bitterness. But the fruit of those decisions is really sweet: a rich source of joy within and a spirit of generosity that blesses others.

Friday, April 13, 2007

This and that...

  • Am I the only one who had never heard of Don Imus before last week?
  • Am I the only person in America who hasn't watched American Idol?
  • I went and bought another stinkin' book last night - even though I have a stack 'o books to read a mile high. I bought Dan Kimball's 'They Like Jesus But Not The Church.' I read one of his other books, and used to read his blog daily. I like Dan - he has actually responded to comments from me; and I can relate to him well. I like his "vintage-ness." I am curious to see if this book has much to say in my "situation" though. He lives in another world (California), and I don't know how well my rural midwestern world will align. But... ya never know.
  • I also bought two new Bible Study options. I got a dvd study from a series entitled "Deeper Connections." I got The Prayers of Jesus--DVD: Six In-depth Studies Connecting the Bible to Life. It looks interesting, and had a good review HERE.
  • I also bought the What The Bible Is All About 101 Old Testament: Genesis - Esther study, by Henrietta Mears. I'm not sure why. There are four different studies - each of them 13 weeks. I can already hear people groaning when I suggest something this long. Call me stupid.
  • I don't know why I keep buying different studies. I have a million already. But I see something new and I think, "Yeah, that one looks interesting. Maybe others would find it interesting too." I honestly don't think the problem is the studies though... I think it's me. I seem to make the 'good news' boring, or worse yet, bad. Man... I just have no confidence in my teaching ability.
  • I often wish I were more of a theologian, or scholar. But I'm simply not. I really didn't even gain a basic knowledge of the Bible until later in life. There have been a few people who have told me, or heavily insinuated anyway, that this disqualifies me from being a pastor. I don't know. I think a pastor ought to have a pretty good grasp. But pastoring is not the same thing as being a theologian or scholar. At least I don't think. Maybe I'm just a fool. Certainly, I am. A fool for Christ I can only hope.
  • I need to finish "Pilgrim Heart"; then I wanted to read "The Dangerous Act of Worship" by Mark Labberton. But I wanna get started on Kimball's "They Like Jesus But Not The Church." Sometime I want to get back to Kerouac's "On The Road." And... and... and...
  • I haven't even thought about the fact that I'm supposed to be on vacation next week. Probably because it's not really a vacation. I just needed to be gone for the weekend to do a wedding, and therefore needed to take a week off. Nobody's fault but mine. Just saying...
  • I am a ramblin' man today. Sorry. Time for a cold meatloaf sandwich. Perhaps my favorite kinda sandwich. Jane is a mighty fine cook. Good thing.
later. (seems weird that I used to sign off every post with "peace. revolution." Hmm.

Financial help: Feed the Pig

I usually gloss over during tv commercials, but for some reason I noticed this one while watching PTI last night. A guy was looking at big-screen tv's and the salesman has him talked into buying... when this guy with a pig face (in pic) slaps his arm and tells him he doesn't need it. Then it just displayed the website: http://feedthepig.org. So I checked it out.

Turns out this is Benjamin Bankes, and their site is full of great information, and help, for managing our finances. According to the site Feed-the-Pig is...
...a new national public service campaign from the American Institute of Certified Public Accountants (AICPA) and The Advertising Council. The goal of the campaign is to encourage the 40 million Americans age 25 to 34 to take control of their personal finances. The campaign, Feed the Pig ™, is a new component of the 360 Degrees of Financial Literacy effort which aims to educate Americans about how financial issues affect their lives. It features a Web site, www.360financialliteracy.org, offering free tools and resources to help Americans manage their finances through every stage of life.

I say cool! Finally, someone trying to share some sense, rather than perpetuating the myth that we can "have it all"... and that it's okay to have it all on credit. I highly recommend checking it out.

SIDENOTE - This was especially interesting because I have been looking for some financial help for some of the young people I've been giving premarital counseling. So many people are clueless as to the realities of managing money. So... FEED THE PIG!!!

Thursday, April 12, 2007

Is there a difference between being Christ-like and God-like?

I just remembered that Jane brought this up last night (perhaps she’ll write on HER blog again someday): Is there a difference between striving to be like Christ and striving to be like God? I haven't given it a lot of thought yet, but it is certainly intriguing. In the Bible we are told to be Christ-like. He is our example; we are to take up our cross and follow him; our mind and attitude are to be like his. Christians are to be followers OF Jesus. And, yes, I know that Jesus was in fact God. But is there a reason we were told to be like Christ, rather than to be like God? I mean, it is God who will separate the wheat and the tares. God is the judge. God is the maker and sustainer of all things.

Do you suppose part of the problem with humans is we would rather be like God than like Christ? Christ didn't control his own destiny, so-to-speak ("not my will, but yours be done"); God ordered Creation. Christ said 'turn the other cheek'; God took out his wrath at will. Christ said 'blessed are the poor... the meek... those who mourn and suffer, etc.; God said 'I Am.' Was Christ's temptation in the desert not actually a tempting to display "God-like-ness"? And he resisted.

It just makes you wonder... when we think it is up to us to control human events (war is only one example)... are we trying to be God-like, instead of Christ-like? Just a thought.

(me) First church

Last night was the last gathering for our small group, and I asked what anyone might be interested in doing next. I also wondered how we might get more people involved… because we don’t seem to have very many people at our church interested in such things – you know, getting together and learning about Jesus and the Bible and one another. I think for a lot of people it’s a big deal if they just show up on a Sunday morning, and they see no need for anything more. But I happen to feel small group studies, or discussions, are the core of discipleship. And I believe THAT is what the church is supposed to be all about – making disciples. But we’re not.

Randy lit my fire earlier this week in a post ‘Despairing on Discipleship.’ He talked about how the last thing Jesus said to do was to make disciples; but we seem content to make pew-sitters and givers. And I think he’s right.

Someone asked last night what made a person a Christian. It’s hard to answer, because for a lot of us we ‘hope’ it was determined by our upbringing, or a prayer we prayed at some point in time, or… sad to say, for some reason a lot of Americans are naïve enough to think ‘American’ and ‘Christian’ are the same thing. I believe a Christian is, quite simply, someone who has a GROWING RELATIONSHIP WITH JESUS. The thing that sets Christianity apart from all other religions of the world is Jesus Christ. But it’s not enough just to know ‘about’ him. The key to being a disciple is developing a relationship with him, and it should never stop. Certainly this has to be a personal choice we make, but the problem many of us have is understanding that you cannot have a relationship with Jesus without developing a relationship with his “body.” By this I mean – faith is not a “personal” thing; it’s a community thing. It’s learning to live as a part of the body of Christ. And therein lies the crux of the problem (IMHO). We like Jesus, we just don’t like his followers (his body).

I think I startled everyone last night when I said the reason I didn’t think people liked attending small groups was because we basically just don’t like each other. I think it’s interesting how the people who seem to think they are the most loving and caring are really some of the most snobbish and uncaring people around. Of course I don’t really care what you think so I don’t fit in either group. :) (not true)

Anyway, I guess my whole point is… I think all the problems with the church can be boiled down to one thing: we are all self-centered. And until we learn to get over ourselves, not too much is going to change.

There are different types of self-centeredness. Some people feel they are superior to others, and don’t even realize how obvious this is to everyone else. It may have to do with their societal or financial position, family, perceived intelligence, or any number of things. And they don’t consider it snobbery, but a mere fact of life. Strangely enough they’re not really any different than those whose self-centeredness is masked in an inferiority complex. The people on the other end of the spectrum who feel they’re NOT good enough to mingle with anyone else. Many confuse this with humility. It is true that some are shy, or through no fault of their own may have acquired this perception of themselves – through abuse or past painful experiences. But at its core it is still a form of self-centeredness… even if it is self-protection. And, third, there are always those who are just plain indifferent. Perhaps they are a mix of the above. They don’t care for one reason or another.

Well, this is long, and I don’t have any answers. But I wish we could all get over ourselves and actually get about this business of learning to live together and love one another. But then, I guess that’s just what “I” want. Yep, I'm just as self-centered as the next person. What about you though? Any thoughts or insights that might help? I would appreciate any input anyone may have.

Sign of the times

Pissed off dog - on us

I don't know if our fat little dog was pissed off at us last night, or just utterly scared. But when we came home from our small group at Lucy's.... we found a big yellow spot right smack in the middle of our bed. Bogie doesn't like it when it storms. He especially doesn't like to be alone when it storms. Like he needed to remind us. But he's never peed in our bed before. Argh.

Wednesday, April 11, 2007

Definition...

If you happened to catch my earlier, and now deleted, post... you know that I am suffering from gravity overload. Rather than bore you with the whiny details, and since it is such a lovely stinking cold and rainy day, I thought I would just shout out some definitions - courtesy of "The Christian Theological Reader" (edited by Alister McGrath). This was a book from my seminary days that I hadn't looked at in a long time. Here are some random samplings:

Anthropomorphism - The tendency to ascribe human features (such as hands or arms) or other human characteristics to God.

Beatific Vision - A term used, especially in Roman Catholic theology, to refer to the full vision of God, which is allowed only to the elect after death. However, some writers, including Thomas Aquinas, taught that certain favored individuals - such as Moses and Paul - were allowed this vision in the present life.

Catechism - A popular manual of Christian doctrine, usually in the form of question and answer, intended for religious instruction.

Doxology - A form of praise, usually especially associated with formal Christian worship. A "doxological" approach to theology stresses the importance of praise and worship in theological reflection.

Existentialism - A movement which places emphasis on the subjectivity of individual existence, and the way in which this is affected by one's environment. The theological development of this approach is especially associated with Rudolf Bultmann and Paul Tillich.

Fundamentalism - A form of American Protestant Christianity, which lays especial emphasis upon the authority of an inerrant Bible.

Hypostatic Union - The doctrine of the union of divine and human natures in Jesus Christ, without confusion of their respective substances.

Incarnation - A term used to refer to the assumption of human nature by God, in the person of Jesus Christ. The term "incarnationalism" is often used to refer to theological approaches which lay especial emphasis upon God's becoming human.

Justification by faith, doctrine of - The section of Christian theology dealing with how the individual sinner is able to enter into fellowship with God. The doctrine was to prove to be of major significance at the time of the Reformation.

Kenoticism - A form of Christology which lays emphasis upon Christ's "laying aside" of certain divine attributes in the incarnation, or his "emptying himself" of at least some divine attributes, especially omniscience or omnipotence.

Liberal Protestant - A movement, especially associated with nineteenth-century Germany, which stressed the continuity between religion and culture, flourishing between the time of F.D.E. Schleiermacher and Paul Tillich.

Modalism - A Trinitarian heresy, which treats the three persons of the Trinity as different "modes" of the Godhead. A typical modalist approach is to regard God as active as Father in creation, as Son in redemption, and as Spirit in sanctification.

Neo-Orthodoxy - A term used to designate the general position of Karl Barth (1886-1968), especially the manner in which he drew upon the theological concerns of the period of Reformed Orhtodoxy.

Orthodoxy - A term used in a number of senses, of which the following are the most important: Orthodoxy in the sense of "right belief," as opposed to heresy; Orthodoxy in the sense of the forms of Christianity which are dominant in Russia and Greece; Orthodoxy in the sense of a movement within Protestantism, especially in the late sixteenth and early seventeenth century, which laid emphasis upon need for doctrinal definition.

Postmodernism - A general cultural development, especially in North America, which resulted from the general collapse in confidence of the universal rational principles of the Enlightenment.

Quadriga - The Latin term used to refer to the "fourfold" interpretation of Scripture according to its literal, allegorical, tropological moral, and analogical senses.

Reformed - A term used to refer to a tradition of theology which draws inspiration from the writings of John Calvin (1510-64) and his successors. The term is now generally used in preference to "Calvinist."

Synoptic Problem - The scholarly question of how the three Synoptic Gospels relate to each other. Perhaps the most common approach to the relation of the three Synoptic Gospels is the "Two Source" theory, which claims that Matthew and Luke used Mark as a source, while also drawing upon a second source (usually known as "Q"). Other possibilities exist: for example, the Grisebach hypothesis, which treats Matthew as having been written first, followedy by Luke and then Mark.

Theotokos - Literally, "the bearer of God." A Greek term used to refer to Mary, the mother of Jesus Christ, with the intention of reinforcing the central insight of the doctrine of the incarnation - that is, that Jesus Christ is none other than God. The term was extensively used by writers of the eastern church, especially around the time of the Nestorian controversy, to articulate both the divinity of Christ and the reality of the incarnation.

Vulgate - The Latin translation of the Bible, largely deriving from Jerome, upon which medieval theology was largely based.

Zwinglianism - The term is generally used to refer to the thought of Huldrych Zwingli, but is often used refer specifically to his views on the sacraments, especially on the "real presence" (which for Zwingli was more of a "real absence").

Tuesday, April 10, 2007

Silence & prayer...

Early this morning I was feeling down because I was stuck in this thought that... I have no ability to relate to normal people. By that I mean I have lost touch with the reality of having a job, working with people, dealing with the normalcies of life. As a full-time pastor on a one-person staff I spend great amounts of time in isolation and silence. There are many times when I think I should get a 'regular' job - at least part-time - so I can better relate to people. And that may be something I should do. But... then I read Tippen's chapter 10 in "Pilgrim Heart" -- 'Listening: Within the Deep Stream of Silence.' What a privilege I am afforded to be able to spend lengths of time in prayer, study, and solitude before God. It could be that (for me anyhow) getting a part-time job would jeopardize the very thing I need most - time spent with God. So, anywayyyy, here are some great quotes from the chapter:
(p.126) Soren Kierkegaard once observed that people commonly suppose that the most important thing in prayer is to concentrate upon what one is praying for: "Yet in the true, eternal sense it is just the reverse: the true relation in prayer is not when God hears what is prayed for, but when the person praying continues to pray until he is the one who hears, who hears what God wills" ...It may well be that the deepest form of prayer begins when we run out of things to say.
(p.128) Thomas Merton Explains: "Without an element of solitude there can be no compassion because when a man is lost in the wheels of a social machine he is no longer aware of human needs as a matter of personal responsibility."
(p.129) "In the silence between us, [we] hear the world crying." Chaim Potok (oh man!)
(p.129) "To pray is to listen to the One who calls you 'my beloved daughter,' 'my beloved son,' 'my beloved child.' To pray is to let that voice speak to the center of your being, to your guts, and let that voice resound in your whole being. Who am I? I am the beloved..." Henri Nouwen

Monday, April 09, 2007

Forgiveness is possible...

This morning I started in on Darryl Tippen's book "Pilgrim Heart" again. I have been so not in a reading mood lately. Today I read the chapter "Forgiving: The Love That Travels Farther." I'm not a good critic or summarizer, but here are a coupla quotes I liked:
"Anybody who lives beneath the Cross and who has discerned in the Cross of Jesus the utter wickedness of all men and of his own heart will find there is no sin that can ever be alien to him. Anybody who has once been horrified by the dreadfulness of his own sin that nailed Jesus to the Cross will no longer be horrified by even the rankest sins of a brother." (Bonhoeffer, p.117)

"The glory of Christianity is to conquer by forgiveness." (William Blake, p.121)

I know the Bible says money is the root of all evil, but... hmm, I think unforgiveness causes some serious root problems too. Have you ever been around people who are constantly at one another's throats? I believe vengeance and retaliatory stuff are the direct results of unforgiveness. And for many people it's the inability to forgive themselves that drives them to be so bitter and unforgiving of others. We are so afraid to admit we need a Savior. So afraid to admit we might not have our crap together. And in our denial we are then unable to forgive those who are just like us. Forgiveness is hard. That's why it takes a death on a cross to make it possible (well, and the rising part too). And, of course, that has happened... so it is possible.

It is finished.

Easter, that is. Perhaps I should feel bad for being glad that it's over, but... it is a lot of work. I do enjoy most of it though. Maundy Thursday went okay even though we only had 17 show up. Good Friday was nice - I thought. We were at a small UM church, and it was very traditional. But I like services like that. I don't know why but I simply love singing old hymns very slowly anymore. Easter Sunday was okay. Good crowd for breakfast and worship. Many visitors. I gave people the opportunity to light a candle at the end and we had to go through 'Amazing Grace' two and a half times because so many people partook. I felt quite a sense of relief and satisfaction last night when I was putting things away and closing the Easter file for this year though. I didn't even realize that after this week I'm on vacation for a week (sort of). I will be in Illinois to do my nephew's wedding then. I am looking forward to it - and was quite honored to be asked - but I will be soooo glad when it's over. Blended families on both sides and all that. But Tim was the first baby I ever held. Hmm. He's going to be a doctor, you know. Nice couple. And all in all this past weekend was pretty nice too. The kids were both home; my parents were here for a brief visit (and stayed for church); hopefully that was the coldest it will be for a while. Yep, let's close the door on this weekend and call it a day.

Saturday, April 07, 2007

Summer schedule so far...


Already booked at our church and/or pavilion for this summer:
  • June 16 'Community Cookout & Concert' -- Dane Bailey "The Singing Auctioneer" (looking for opening act).
  • July 1 'July Jams' (Sunday morning) -- Ben Laatsch (recently featured with this pic on front page of the F.W. Journal Gazzette 'Living' section).
  • July 22 'July Jams' (Sunday morning outdoor concert) -- Ryan Hirschy (just nominated as 'Male Vocalist of the Year' for 2nd Annual Christian Indie Alliance MOMENTUM AWARDS!)
  • July 27 (Friday night outdoor concert) -- Jason Ringenberg - legendary Nashville singer/songwriter and alt-country, cow-punk pioneer (looking for opening act).
  • July 28 (Sat. morning childrens show & VBS) -- Farmer Jason.




I do have some more people lined up for July, just haven't confirmed dates and times yet. If you're a local musician, or traveling through... get ahold of me! Looking for people willing to do outdoor free concerts.

Friday, April 06, 2007

My wonderful haircut

Milton asked for it. Here is my new haircut. This is without a shower yet. After washing, it kinda goes into a natural fohawk - compliments of my four cowlicks (I musta been born in a barn).

Below is a spiffy pic of me in my suit (from last year). I only wear it for weddings and funerals. I've never actually worn it on a Sunday morning; but Tom and I were wondering if we should start. I dunno... just can't handle a necktie (see how I'm grimmacing in this pic). But a robe... now there's a thought.

A political question

Candidate 1 says to candidate 2: “Will you be running as a Democrat or a Republican?”

Candidate 2: “Oh, I’m not a Capitalist at all. I’m a Christian.”

Candidate 1: “How on earth will you fund your campaign?”

Thursday, April 05, 2007

Maundy Thursday Service

Fairview Church

Maundy Thursday Service – April 5, 2007 - 7 pm

Welcome and explanation of the evenings events

Scripture Readings:

- Exodus 12:1-3;12-14

- Psalm 116:1-2;12-19

- 1 Corinthians 11:23-26

- John 13:1-17

- John 13:34-35

Hymn Reading“Alas! And Did My Savior Bleed”

Prayer

Evening Options – (feel free to participate in as many or few as you like)

- Feetwashing: For those wishing to participate – the women will go to Room 1 (Scott’s S.S. room) and the men will go to Room 2 (H.S. room). After you are done you may return to the sanctuary for communion and/or meditation, you may go downstairs and walk through the Stations of the Cross, or you may leave.

- Stations of the Cross: This is to be done individually. Those not participating in feetwashing may go ahead and begin walking through the Stations. Please begin by using the main basement stairs, wind through, and return to the sanctuary using the back stairway. Allow a few minutes for the person in front of you to have time to read each devotion and prayer before beginning. After you are done you may return to the sanctuary for communion and/or meditation, or you may leave.

- Communion: This is to be done individually or as couples. When Pastor Dan gets back to the sanctuary, you may come up to the table and sit on the bench. Pastor Dan will serve you communion by self-intinction – meaning you will be given a piece of bread and it is to be dipped in the cup of sparkling grape juice.

- Lighting A Candle of Love: Candles are on the back of the piano and may be lit off of the bigger “Christ” candle. This is a symbolic way of asking God to shine the light of Christ either on an area of your own life, or in the life of a loved one. To light a candle – take one of the sticks in the sand bucket, light it off of the Christ candle, light a tea-light candle, and place the stick back in the sand bucket. It is not necessary to blow the light out.

- Feel free to sit in the sanctuary and enjoy the music and Spirit’s presence for as long as you like. You may leave at any time.

The paradox of my most popular posts

I've had a lot of visitors lately who've googled "Emerging Church Maundy Thursday" or some such configuration of words. Which is interesting considering my most popular post is still "Why I'm No Longer Emergent" - from over a year ago - and is linked to both emerging church and anti-emerging blogs alike. I really dislike that post, and have thought about removing it - especially because of some of my follow-up banter. But... whatever. Of course, a close second to that post is "What's Wrong With Dolly"... from around Christmas. Apparently a lot of people wanna know why the doll was on the Island of Misfit Toys.

Random thoughts

Today starts the annual weirdest two-days of the year for me. Maundy Thursday and Good Friday. I'm unable to put together a focused thought, so here's some randomnies.
  • I can't believe I mowed the yard in a t-shirt one day, and there is snow on the ground the next.
  • My haircut fears were realized: She said, "Do you want the usual?" I said, "Yeah, but maybe not quite as short." I guess I should have just told her to trim up the edges. I'm not sure what I ended up with, but it isn't what I pictured. And I really like the person I go to, but sometimes I feel like I pay $13 (plus $2 tip) for a haircut, and she gets a free half hour of counseling. Hmm.
  • We booked a singer for our June 16 'Community Concert & Cookout.' The other day when I whined about not being able to find someone... this guy actually returned my call within hours of posting. I'm not a real big southern gospel guy, but 'The Singing Auctioneer' oughta be a good time for everyone. I'm looking forward to it.
  • Sometimes I am afraid to even speak. I continue to see posts abound that are anti-church, and really almost anti-pastor. I don't know why I take it personally, because I think the things many of them complain about are the very things I try to take into consideration too. But it still bothers me and makes me wonder exactly what it is I'm supposed to say and do that won't offend or negatively effect people. Also, it seems I have always had this uncanny ability to depress everyone around me. And THAT really depresses me. I don't want to be like that.
  • I don't know.... there's other stuff on my mind, and it's probably best to just not say anything. Nobody likes a whiner; some things are best left unsaid.
Peace.

There oughta be a revolution.

The kite is still in the package.

Peace takes courage

I stumbled onto this video - made by a 16-year-old home schooler - and posted on her website: peacetakescourage.com. I don't really have anything to say. (h/t - Mike C.)

Tuesday, April 03, 2007

The Suffering Servant

My part in the community Good Friday service is to read Isaiah 52:13-53:12. I know I have read this in previous community Good Friday services. It is an incredible piece. This year I think I will read it from the Contemporary English Version. I really like this translation. Not so much for study, but for it's readability. I like the language; the wordage. It is a long piece, but you should read it sometime this week. I hope I can do it Friday without tearing up. Go here to read Is. 52:13-53:12 (CEV).

Feel like flyin' a kite...

I bought a kite last night. We were getting supplies for Maundy Thursday (black and blood-red tablecloths, candles, bread and sparkling grapejuice, etc.), and I saw a big kite display. I used to always fly kites in the spring. Some of them were pretty cool, but... being a geezer now, I just went with a simple $2.83 kite. I don't know when I'll fly it, but... sometime.

Later we went to c2g for open mic night. It was ... interesting. Some good, some okay, some... yeah. There were performers of all ages; there was music; poetry; readings; young and old; solo and groups. One of the last acts was "Mom, Pop-n-Fresh." Which sounds like, and I think may be, the band of a friend of a friend. They didn't have their drummer though (who is the friend of a friend). Anyway... I don't know that I would ever perform at one of these. I thought I might get a "feel" one way or the other... and I guess the feel was... I should just fly a kite.

I realized yesterday that I put way more effort into Easter week than Christmas. I spend a great amount of time planning and preparing for Maundy Thursday - almost always transforming the sanctuary and basement, and a couple of classrooms. Fortunately our Good Friday service is usually somewhere else, but we've got to re-transform for the easter egg hunt on Saturday, and then set up for the breakfast Easter Sunday morning, and put decorations back in the sanctuary. Easter is definately busier than Christmas. So I should probably take a break and fly a kite sometime this week.

I am not having much luck finding a performer for our June cookout/concert. But I do have 1 confirmation for our Jammin' July lineup. I don't like planning these type of things... all the uncertainty of scheduling; waiting on people to return calls or emails; not knowing; etc., etc. Where is that kite anyway...

Today I need to get a haircut. I don't know why I have always hated haircuts. It's similar to going to the dentist or doctor for me. I also need to mow. Like, I really needed something to take up another 4 hours of my time this week. Do I have a kite? I should get one. Oh wait... I did.

I feel like flyin' a kite. Maybe I will... someday.

Monday, April 02, 2007

New members

Yesterday we took in 15 new members to the church. That's the most at one time since I have been here. And I have to say, it was quite a spectacle having them all standing across the front of the sanctuary. I think for a brief moment our little group actually felt a cool sense of joy... like, wow, these people want to be a part of us. It was good.

As I added their names to the "big book" this morning, I counted 50 people that have joined the church since August 1999 when I became pastor (including these 15). Interestingly enough, 18 of the previous 35 are no longer involved with the church. Just over half. Some have moved, some are attending other churches, and some simply just quit altogether. Kind of sad.

But... yesterday was a picture I want to keep in my mind for some time. It made me feel good; I believe it made the current members feel good. I think there's something about saying "I do"... or "Go team"... or "I've got your back"... that gives a sense of hope to people. Sure, things may unravel at some point; but in that moment you realize you're not alone.

I dunno. It was good.

Sunday, April 01, 2007

Forgiving saints

I'm supposed to be tearing down and setting up for Maundy Thursday... but I just can't get these two quotes off my mind. I saw both of them last week on Jim Martin and Scot McKnight's blogs. I will just leave them with you and leave you to fill in your own commentary:
(I think this quote is by Glenn Hinson, used in Randy Harris' book Like A Shepherd Lead Us p. 31):
"...what the church needs most are saints - people who have truly placed their lives under God's will and control. We don't just need leaders with greater skill, we need leaders who are deep people."
From Darryl Tippen's book Pilgrim Heart:
“Forgiveness may be the one miracle that we can experience daily, if we are but willing to risk our pride and renounce our need to be ‘right’.”