I don't like this

Do you ever have that feeling, like, you just don't know anything about anything? I don't think I know anything about pastoring, about people, about church work, church life, and I'm beginning to wonder if I know anything about God or the Bible. It seems like everything I think should get people excited, or should work, or should be good... just flops. Maybe I should try doing like George Castanza on the episode of Seinfeld where he does the opposite of everything he thinks he should do.

It makes me wonder... is God trying to tell me something? Am I in the wrong line of work? Should I quit? Should I do something else? Or am I just supposed to hang on?

I am so un-motivated. I don't know what to do. I'm not mad at anyone; I don't dislike my church or what I do necessarily. I just don't know what to do, and have no confidence that I ever will know what to do. I feel like I'm a waste.

All I can think of is Habakkuk 3:17-19...

Though the fig tree does not bud
and there are no grapes on the vines,
though the olive crop fails
and the fields produce no food,
though there are no sheep in the pen
and no cattle in the stalls,
yet I will rejoice in the LORD,
I will be joyful in God my Savior.

The Sovereign LORD is my strength;
he makes my feet like the feet of a deer,
he enables me to go on the heights.

Be my strength, Lord. Help me to live beyond my feelings.