Mixed-handed unstable genius

I have always felt different. Probably because I am. I know...

I'm both extroverted and introverted, shy and talkative, highly sensitive and totally crass... and, yes, right-handed and left-handed. Is it both, or neither? I'm not even sure of that.

I was reading this article 'The Evolutionary Mystery of Left-Handedness' and, like most articles on the subject, found it just as void of conclusive evidence as all studies on the subject seem to be. Yet there were a couple interesting points made.

Albert Einstein is often hailed as a hero for the lefties. But he wasn't, as noted with this astericized comment at the end:

* Einstein’s handedness is somewhat a matter of debate. While he is often cited among history’s famous lefties, laterality scholars have surmised that he was mixed-handed — which is not to be confused with ambidextrous: mixed-handed people use the right hand for some things and the left for others, whereas the ambidextrous can use both hands equally well for most tasks.

This is me. Not that I'm some kind of genius like Einstein (though I apparently look like him), but I am mixed-handed. I do some things with my left and some with my right.

Further though, my ears perked at their magical ideation theory ("Consider for a moment that there’s a thin, perhaps blurred line between genius and mental illness"). I feel that. Not with my fingers... but there's a sense inside me that is like... yeah...

I don't know. I think we all believe we're smarter than we are (and I know I am plenty stupid most of the time). But there are other times I feel like... there's a thought that's... RIGHT THERE! Like, I almost have it figured out - if only I could find the words... And then in the next instant I wonder to myself if I really am mentally ill. Like when you fall down and look around to see if anybody saw it. I'll shake my head and wonder if I said something out loud or just thought it.

Meh, maybe everybody's like this. Or, maybe being mixed-handed really is just mixed up!

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Luke 12:6-7

“Are not five sparrows sold for two pennies? Yet not one of them is forgotten by God. Indeed, the very hairs of your head are all numbered. Don’t be afraid; you are worth more than many sparrows."