Friday five

Yeah, I know. I've not been doing a very good job here lately. Oof. I'm so tired. Mostly from running. I guess. Anyway, here's an attempt at writing something...

1. I think this is the most exhausted I've felt since I started running... 10-12 years ago. Every run is a chore. It doesn't matter if it's 15 miles or 1.5. I just can't get my legs going. I'm stiff, sore, and I simply have no energy. 17 miles tomorrow seems impossible. 
2. This is the first "grandparents day" I have missed since they've been in school (I think). It makes me sad. I know it's not the end of the world, but still. I haven't felt overly "grandparent-ish" since they moved to the country. I hate missing today. I didn't know how to make it happen now that I have to get 40 hours a week at work though, and I don't have much choice over when. I feel locked in. I don't like it.
3. I started a new book today. A pastor friend loaned me Mark Yaconelli's 'Between the Listening and the Telling: How Stories Can Save Us.' I went to a seminar Mark led a few years ago, and it was really good. I'm looking forward to the book.
4. I've been thinking about starting a Substack to blog with. It seems to be the new thing, and this ol' Blogger blog just doesn't seem to be happening anymore. It's like I'm invisible. Although, with some of the content on here that may not be a bad thing. I find it weird I can barely find myself in a Google search though. I suppose I could always just stop writing. If I did switch I would probably just pull some of my stuff from here and occasionally repost it there. Meh.
   
5. Oddly enough, all of the above is somehow tied to my work situation too. Which is apparently going to be changing. I knew it was too good to last. After essentially handling the day to day activities for the past couple years and working mostly by myself, they've decided they want to hire me a boss again. Someone to be here. I suppose it could be better in some ways (like, actually KNOWING who my boss is), but it is really going to cramp my style and I can only imagine will not end well for me. At least that's my pessimistic take right now. Ugh. Oh well. I just really wish I could retire. God, I'm so tired. All. the.time.
   

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James 1:19-21

"My dear brothers and sisters, take note of this: Everyone should be quick to listen, slow to speak and slow to become angry, because human anger does not produce the righteousness that God desires. Therefore, get rid of all moral filth and the evil that is so prevalent and humbly accept the word planted in you, which can save you."