Can I retire at 65 with $2.5 million?, and other thoughts about jesus

I was feeling pretty low this morning. I'd stayed up too late. Again. Drank too much. Again. Tired of my job. Still. And there I was at 5 a.m. listening to the drone of treadmills while feeling like a loser. When I opened Firefox and this article pops up suggesting Americans are worried 2.5 millions dollars isn't enough to retire on (like, really, WHO IN THE HELL is wondering that? Who even has that much money?!?)... Well, it just about did me in. I'm sure there are people with that kind of money, and those concerns. But not me. Not even close. I wonder if I'll even BE ABLE to retire...

Ugh. Some days... It seems like most days... I was feeling lonely, frustrated, depressed, and tired.

Well, I opened up Philip Yancey's 'The Jesus I Never Knew.' I didn't want to read, but it's what I do at a certain point each morning. Mostly because I have found it will help. Today I was on the last chapter.

Philip starts it out with this piece from Scott Peck about his skeptical first reading of the gospels:

I was absolutely thunderstruck by the extraordinary reality of the man I found in the Gospels. I discovered a man who was almost continually frustrated. His frustration leaps out of virtually every page: "What do I have to say to you? How many times do I have to say it? What do I have to do to get through to you?" I also discovered a man who was frequently sad and sometimes depressed, frequently anxious and scared... A man who was terribly, terribly lonely, yet often desperately needed to be alone. I discovered a man so incredibly real that no one could have made Him up.

Did you feel that? Man, down into my gut... This guy, Jesus: he knows me.

I am so glad I re-read this book. I'm not sure if there isn't a book the Church needs more right now than this one! If there is, I'd like to read it too!! The heck with what's happening in the world (or what the news is trying to convince us of anyway). The Church needs to get to know Jesus again. We really do.

I don't have anything else to say at the moment. Thank you, Jesus.