This is a little deep-dive into how my brain works (which is what I was thinking while on my run yesterday, and I am just now trying to put it back together in my mind this morning)...
Is it just me, or does everyone assume that everyone else knows what you know? I mean, I have a hard time thinking I know more than anyone else. When it comes to information, or understanding how things are and work... I just assume if I know something, then everyone must know it. Because I'm not that smart. Of course, this can cause all sorts of communication problems...
WHAT'S WORSE...
Somewhat along these lines... I also kinda/sorta just assume that everyone is aware of all the terrible thoughts and deeds I've had in my mind and/or committed. Like, you can read it on my face. A 'maybe those thought-bubbles are real' sort of thing. I dunno. I just feel like it must be obvious to everyone how much of a cad and a fraud I am. You can tell, right?
WHICH MAKES ME WONDER...
Why do you tolerate me? Is it just because you're too nice to say anything? Or, perhaps, is it because you, too, have these same thoughts and actions and you're too afraid to point the finger for fear you'll be called to the carpet yourself? Can anyone be trusted? Are we all imposters, and you don't condemn me because you feel just like I do... you're preoccupied with your own crap too? What hope do any of us have?
ALTHOUGH WHAT MAY BE EVEN WORSE...
However, I suppose it's possible... it is just me. You can tell how terrible of a person I am... but you are not like that yourself. You actually are honest and charitable and generous and kind... and it's because of this you don't publicly call me out. You... tolerate me. You pity me. Or, maybe even... you don't really even consider me at all.
I know it sounds extreme. That doesn't mean it's not true. I also know it is likely exaggerated and fortunately most of us operate out of at least some semblance of love, grace, and understanding toward our fellow humans.
So, thank you.
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