Greetings, folks. I'm not sure what it's like where you are, but sitting at my dining room table where I normally type this out, it is a dreary-looking funky day. Yet, here's five(ish) things...
1. FUNK (NOT GRAND)
I am not talking about the music genre, Grand Funk Railroad, or even the smell... But I'm in a bit of doldrums the past few days. I don't know if this is the post-race letdown, or if it's simply because my normal routine has been disrupted, or... what. I suppose it could be several things.
I don't think it's anything serious, but it's kinda like my brain is tired. I haven't run this week, we made a quick trip to Peoria to see Jane's brother in the hospital, another trip is coming up, I'm still trying to pull together my sermon for this Sunday, and wondering about what my purpose (or place) in life is, why I exist, how to make some money, is the world going to end, is there any hope... you know, just the normal noises. Plus, it seems a lot of the strides I'd made emotionally over the past six months... kind of got sucked out of me all of a sudden awhile back... and it's frustrating.
Maybe I'm just tired. I don't travel well, and I really need a regular routine. I don't think everyone realizes how difficult it can be for people who rely on routines to suddenly be deprived of them. I'm picturing a very wide-eyed, frightened child sitting inside my head right now, hugging their legs, rocking back and forth, wanting their teddy bear...
Anyway, I know this too shall pass (I hope). But it's there. Now. It came on fairly suddenly, and will likely (hopefully) leave just as suddenly. I hate it. I can feel it in the front part of my head - sort of between/behind my eyes. Sometimes it has seemed the story of my life... though it's been quite awhile sense it's visited.
2. WHAT DO YOU THINK
This morning I read this: "In 1800, 99% of physical work was done by humans and animals. Today less than 1% is. Today 90% of cognitive work is done by humans. Some now claim 90% of that will go away." That didn't really help in regard to point one above. Plus the fact that the U.S. debt now exceeds the size of the U.S. economy, I almost literally can't drive in our town because of all the road closures, our government is insane, culture is crazy, and, you know, just... everything else! Things feel a little hopeless. Which, I know, is how certain someone's are trying to make us feel.
But "thinking"? Could it really get worse?
I was actually thinking while driving yesterday that maybe I should just stop running, and start trying to earn some income. Or at least consult AI and figure out if I could come up with some kind of business model for this blog (or probably the substack - which I haven't touched in months). But even that seems pointless (see Ecclesiastes).
I dunno. ... ... ... I had several things I started to write here, but... meh.
3. SYSTEM OVERLOAD
I'm sorry, but there are simply too many things to insert here... and the system has shut down. I could name off several of them, but even then, there would be too many. Sorry. Just one of those days...
4. BOOKS
I have started reading Let God: Spiritual Conversations with Francois Fénelon, by Winn Collier. I didn't realize there are apparently two versions of this book. This one looks almost self published, as the type-set is very weird. I think I wish I'd bought the one from paraclete, which looks a little better, but... whatever. I still think it will be a good read and will maybe set my brain aright again (?).
5. THE QUOTE
"If your faith is more "white-knuckled fight" than "open-handed surrender," you've forgotten the Gospel. Grace is not just the way in, it's the way on. We don't graduate from our need for God’s mercy-fueled love — we grow deeper into it. His power does not replace our weakness; it meets us there — and is made perfect in it." - Mike Woodruff(This is the opening paragraph in his The Friday Update today. I could have also used the second paragraph. It was something I was glad to read today...)
Peace
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