I finally finished this book (see title). It was okay. A little long for me. They do lead you to their online assessment center at the end. And... guess what... I actually went there - to be assessed as a church planter. That is, until I saw the $20 pricetag. But I'm thinking about it still.
It's not that I don't like where I'm at now. But I kinda "feel" a change coming on. I don't know if I could actually go through a church planting "program" though. And to be honest, I kinda feel old (at 43). Like, maybe I should just get on board with somebody else who is trying to start a church. I don't know. Maybe I'm just depressed and questioning my own skills. At any rate, I don't think I'll go anywhere. Not for a few more years anyway.
I was thinking last night how I am just such a simpleton. I mean, I'm not that smart; I'm not outgoing; I'm not really 'good' at anything in particular. Perhaps my biggest attribute is that I'm "here." Probalby the only thing that saves me is the people I read.
My biggest influencers right now are probably: Andrew Jones (blog), Dan Kimball (blog), Mike Clawson (blog), Brian Miller (blog), Tom Datema (real live person), and still probably Brian McLaren and Donald Miller (books). I am grateful for each of these people - even though most of them have no idea who I even am. Probably best that way.
Well, this post is really going nowhere, isn't it? Sounds like I'm feeling sorry for myself. Not really. Just in one of those moods. I feel kinda rejected. Alone. And I am alone most of the time. I guess all those years working at the exit 45 Sunoco on I-80 paid off. Really got me used to being alone and thinking about how to impact the world. Hmm. Impact?
I really think the church I pastor is a 'come as you are' church - just like the book (NPPA). I just wish we could have the same impact. What would it take to do that? I have no clue. Some leadership, probably. I wish I had just a couple key people even. First I could use someone to lead worship - besides me. Looking for a guitar player/singer/leader. Then, I could use a real people person, but someone who could organize our outreach stuff. Man... I think that could really change things (for the better). But... well... you know.
I have mail, so I will put an end to this drivel. I hope no one is reading today. 'Cause I'm just rambling mostly. If you are, I hope you have a great day! TAke the tiger by the tail. Save the world.
peace. revolution. together. "go". now.
3 comments:
Couple of quick observations from a 58(almost)year old. You're 43 not 73. I think 43 is a fantastic age to pastor...and from observing the church planting scene for a few years...I think it's a great age to plant a church. Here's why:
1) You've (not you personally... but a generic 43 year old) been knocked around a little an can identify with people who are hurting in life. 2) You've lost the idealistic fantasies that many twenty somethings hold on to until about age 30-35...the 30 year olds who know this are smarter. 3) You still have the physical energy to accomplish things....for me at least that started to leave about 55. So you should have a good 10-12 years to get something up and running...God willing. 4)I think it's easier for middle aged people to garner trust and respect than a twenty something...assuming they are trustworthy to begin with. I could go on...but I won't. Bottom line is don't sell yourself short. I've read your comments on the "pink" blog, and you have some great insights to share. Aside from that you have the one critical asset needed to plant a church. No disrespect intended, but you've got a great looking wife! If you're giving it some serious consideration, let me know....I might be able to help you think and pray through the decision/discernment process.
Wow Dan! I'm honored to be listed among your top "influencers" right now. Kind of makes me want to post more substantial content to my blog more often. :)
-Mike
Mike,
Yes... I wish you would post more often. :)
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