My last day

It looks like I very well may have worked my last day for the Y. The governor declared a "stay at home" order, and I am laid off. Indefinitely. Even if we ever are able to go back to work, I don't know that I should.

After being off 2 days last week, I was supposed to report this week to help sort and deliver food all week (at a different branch). On my way there yesterday, my boss emailed that plans had changed and after that day I would be done.

I finally found where I was supposed to go, and there were about a dozen people. No one knew what we were supposed to do. Some people were crowding around one of the tables with food, and no one had rubber gloves on. I hung around for 45 minutes and I finally just left. It was totally unorganized, and the people that were there seemed totally unaware of the social distancing thing. Ugh.

So I went home. Later that night I saw that the Y had taken pictures and they were talking about how great it was and how great all the people were who helped. But not me. While I thought I'd been pretty positive about everything (for me), I started to get mad. I got madder as the night went on. Now I just don't care. About anything. 

For posterity's sake, here's the run-down of events from the last week:

• Tuesday, March 17 - All branches were closed until at least April 13. My co-workers and I were told to stay home the rest of the week and we would hear from someone by the following Monday about maybe cleaning and doing projects and whatnot.
• Tuesday, March 17 (10 minutes later) - I was asked if I could come in from 9 am to 4 pm the rest of the week at my facility and answer phones (since my boss was on vacation).
• Tuesday, March 17 (2 hours later) - My boss called and asked me to work 9-4 the following week too.
• Wednesday, March 18 - I worked 9 am to 4 pm at my facility. As I was clocking out at 4 pm, my boss's boss called and told me not to work the rest of the week, but that I was to come to her facility the following Monday and work there.
• Sunday, March 22 - I asked my daughter (who works for my boss's boss) if she knew what I was supposed to do because I hadn't heard anything. She said everyone got an email Saturday. A couple hours later I got the email with an apology that apparently everyone at my facility had inadvertently been left off the email list. We were told that only those who "need" to work would be able to get a few hours.
• Sunday, March 22 (several hours later) - I was told by my boss's boss I could help with food distribution at another facility in town from 2:15-6:15 pm each day.
• Monday, March 23 - On my way to help distribute food my boss emailed that after today all part-time staff would officially be laid off.
• Tuesday, March 24 - I got an email from my boss's boss stating that all part-time staff are laid off and we can file for unemployment.

So, there it is. I understand this is a difficult time for everyone. None of us - or very few of us - have ever been through something like this. I completely understand being laid off. I thought that’s what was going to happen last Tuesday, and I was fine with that. What I don't understand though, is how an organization that has 1300 employees did not have any kind of contingency plan in place for a crisis of any kind. Then the being jacked around. And it takes soooo long for them to make decisions, and when they do they aren't all on the same page and different people give conflicting information and it's like absolutely no one has any idea what's going on or any kind of plan for the future!

There, I said it. I am mad. I expect leaders to lead, and I think they could do better. Maybe I'm being unfair and difficult and unrealistic. I guess I always have been. I guess I always will be.

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This morning I had been working with Tom online on some devotional stuff for his church. But the wife just texted that she's supposed to start working from home tomorrow and they need our computer today so it can be set up to do that. So... great.

I'm going for a walk.