It's never a good thing when I'm cussing up a storm in imaginary conversations before the sun even rises. Sometimes I feel like Dr. Jekyl and Mr. Hyde. One personality for the week, another for weekends. Work can be such a drag at times, and I seem to feel completely different when I'm not at work - or planning for the next day, or worrying about getting to bed on time or waking up on time, and things like that.
Anyway, a few weeks ago we watched the documentary "Tom Petty: Somewhere You Feel Free - The Making of Wildflowers." It was a good movie, and I liked it. I also downloaded the record the next day.
I can't imagine enjoying life like that. I mean, in the movie they were all happy and having fun and great conversations and whatnot. And, yeah, it was just a movie so I'm sure it wasn't all fun and games all the time. Still...
Do you feel free? What does it mean to feel free? Is there a place, or a time, when you feel freer than others? Should we always feel free or is it necessary to have a certain bit of tension between freedom and a sense of responsibility? How does a person go about feeling freer? ...
I've been thinking about this 'somewhere you feel free' thing for a while. Personally, I have felt free while running by myself, while being with my wife, laughing with the kids/grandkids, at times with friends, and sometimes even at work. I don't know that it has to be limited to a place and time, or even circumstance.
Perhaps it's a Spirit thing. You know, God is always with us. Maybe there are times we're more aware of it mentally, other times we're not even aware of it, but our spirit knows; and maybe sometimes it 'just happens.' I don't know.
So, one way I've been making it through the days lately is trying to be more conscious of 'God with us' (Emmanuel). Not everything depends on me, or anyone else. Trying to lighten up, let go, not feel the need to say what's on my mind, not react and respond so soon, wait out frustrations, force myself to smile and be thankful..... And I fail most of the time, but at least not all the time. It's something.
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"All this took place to fulfill what the Lord had said through the prophet: “The virgin will conceive and give birth to a son, and they will call him Immanuel” (which means “God with us”)." -Matthew 1:22-23
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It was such a good movie. Tom Petty will always remind me of when we first started dating. I never thought an album would be equal in my heart to Damn The Torpedoes, but this one is pretty close, especially having watched how it was made.
It's comforting to me that you feel free in the same way I do.
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