Wednesday wonderings...

I'm sitting at the Skyline desk on this snowy cold late-November morning with no real stream of thought at hand, so here's some free-associating for the day...

• This is, of course, Drew Carrie's wedding anniversary. Their ninth! How wild is that? They have all three kids in school and are way into adulthood. As parents/grandparents, we couldn't be more proud of them. I'm also glad the weather was much nicer then than it is today. I remember it being warm and sunny and we took pictures outside with no coats. It was a beautiful day!
• I am no fan of cold winter weather, but it doesn't bother me so much anymore. I think living in a city helps. I know we can at least always get out. When we lived in the country, or even a small village, I didn't like the feeling of being trapped outside of civilization. I would not make a good mountain man.
• One thing I do like about winter is wearing gloves. I don't care to touch things with my bare hands too much. Gloves are good.
• I started in on my newest coaching class yesterday. It's in a self-paced "e-class" format. I went through the introduction and the five sets of videos making up section 1. It was good to go over the basics of leadership coaching again.
• The past few days I've been really up and down emotionally - about my job, life, personality, and lots of things.
• I can really get down on myself when I think about how meaningless and mundane my job is. Not that it necessarily has to be, but I have no responsibility, and TAKE no responsibility. It is seriously a part-time job that a person in high school could do... and here am I... beyond middle age, educated beyond reason, and I toil in nothingness. I suppose what's worse than the times I am ashamed are the times I'm not.
• On my best days I can think of this as my contribution to society. Trying to be of service in a subversive manner, offering leadership support to my boss, informal coaching to co-workers and members, as well as trying to encourage friends and associates in church work.
• Unfortunately I don't seem to have a lot of "best" days anymore. I feel more like I've wasted a lot of education and reading and I offer little to nothing to anyone around me or society in general. I'm like a spoiled child who never grew up.
• Anyway... sometimes I think I'm getting tired of working early mornings. I like it when I'm there, but I don't like being tired so early in the afternoon then. Maybe I'm just tired of working in general.
• Oddly enough, my least favorite shift is when I work 9-5. It's like it ruins the entire day. Fortunately I only do it one day a week (usually, but not always).
• I also keep wondering if it's my job that makes me feel the way I do, or if it's just me. I mean, every time I think about getting another job and what I want in a job, it seems to be the things I like the best are the things I get to do in this job. I think a lot of it is my boss - he's a nice guy, but is honestly not a good boss. However, there isn't anything I can do about that. So... who knows.

Well, that's probably enough for today. The bike shop guy must be feeling chatty today, so I will sign off. There is one person lifting weights right now, one on an elliptical, and another must be in the locker room. This is the slow period. Period.