Saturday, October 24, 2020

Running over


I guess I am done running. At least for awhile. No marathon in November. No daily mental therapy. Nothing to work towards or look forward to. Not much joy.

I've been limping around all week since straining my left Achilles tendon last week. I didn't do anything but ice and rest for a few days, then on Wednesday I thought I'd go for a bike ride. It felt perfectly fine pedaling the bike, so I went pretty hard for 30 minutes or so. As soon as I stepped off the bike though... I realized that was a mistake!

I worked Wednesday afternoon/evening, and it was almost unbearable pain (for me). I debated whether to borrow some crutches from the physical therapy office, because simply walking any distance resulted in a sweaty brow. More ice and rest since then... and I can almost walk limp free again.

So, I will likely take a month or so off from running... and see how things are. I have a routine doctors appointment in about a month, so if it's not better by then I will see what he suggests. I'm hoping it will be fine at that point.

What's weird is... I feel like my legs and feet are going through withdrawals. They just feel "funny." I am definitely going through emotional withdrawals. In only a week, when I get home from work, it's like I don't know what I'm supposed to do. So I pretty much just sit there. I'm playing a lot of games on my phone; listening to a lot of music. I wish I could at least go for a walk or something, but at this point it's just not possible (or probably wise).

I know it's not the end of the world, but I've been pretty down. I've also been pretty grumpy. Such is life...

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Romans 8:22-27

22 We know that everything God made has been waiting until now in pain, like a woman ready to give birth. 23 Not only the world, but we also have been waiting with pain inside us. We have the Spirit as the first part of God’s promise. So we are waiting for God to finish making us his own children, which means our bodies will be made free. 24 We were saved, and we have this hope. If we see what we are waiting for, that is not really hope. People do not hope for something they already have. 25 But we are hoping for something we do not have yet, and we are waiting for it patiently.

26 Also, the Spirit helps us with our weakness. We do not know how to pray as we should. But the Spirit himself speaks to God for us, even begs God for us with deep feelings that words cannot explain. 27 God can see what is in people’s hearts. And he knows what is in the mind of the Spirit, because the Spirit speaks to God for his people in the way God wants.

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