Full time

Work, work, work...

Yes, I've been working more. In fact, I am now considered a real full-time employee with benefits and everything!

Apparently my executive director was allowed to hire one more person full time, and she asked if I would be interested. She has been more than aware of how I've been exploited the past few years, and I think she was also afraid I was going to quit after my latest meltdown (which I was). I've been working 30-35-ish hours a week for at least 2-3 years, yet not considered full time.

So, as of May 1, after being here 4 1/2 years, they finally felt I was worthy to be given benefits (though no raise or change in job title - even though my title doesn't really describe what I do anyway). Also, for some odd reason, the CEO wanted to meet with me before it became official. It took about 2 minutes for him to mutter some meaningless false praise, and that was that.

I've been hesitant to say anything because, honestly, I'm still not sure how I feel about it. Yes, I have been more than outspoken about how unfair it has been, but it's not like I'm all that excited about being here EVEN MORE. Basically I just added 5 hours onto Friday, so I work 4:45-12:45 Monday through Friday. There's still the same isolation, disrespect, no one willing to listen or involve me in anything, and having to get up so stinking early every day. So it really is just more of the same. But I will get some paid time off, sick days, holidays, and the like.

Ultimately, I guess it's one of those 'it is what it is' things. I'm trying not to freak out about it too much.

***

"May the favor of the Lord our God rest on us;
establish the work of our hands for us—
yes, establish the work of our hands." -Psalm 90:17