Showing posts with label politics. Show all posts
Showing posts with label politics. Show all posts

Wednesday, August 17, 2022

Republican religion vs christianity

Apparently team trump did well in several primary elections yesterday. His hold on this nation continues to boggle my mind.

I really don't like delving into politics, but it seems there is a huge difference between the republican 'supposed-christian' agenda, and true Christianity (or what I believe it to be based on Jesus and his teaching). I just can't gut the whole "God, guns, and o'l glory" ideology espoused by so many "church" people.

Anyway, I came across this quote in my devotional reading this morning. Ignatius of Lyon said it in the 2nd century:

"Christianity is not a matter of persuasive words. It is a matter of true greatness as long as it is hated by the world."
As ironic as it seems, it's like what is being spouted by so many trumpers/republicans/patriots claiming to want America to be a "christian" nation... actually seems opposed to Jesus-Christianity! The thought of helping the poor, humbling ourselves before our enemies, beating swords into plowshares... is a hated concept in so many of our Red, White & Blue "churches." 

So, for lack of anything else to say, I'm trying to hold onto this. Maybe we're on the right track after all. It just doesn't look like it from a worldly perspective.

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Luke 18:27

Jesus replied, “What is impossible with man is possible with God.”


Tuesday, January 25, 2022

Politics

Now there's an attention-getter! I don't really want to talk about any political issues though. I'm totally baffled by something I just found out. It feels sorta like discovering I was adopted, or something...

I just had a conversation with a guy I see several times a week, and he told me he started working for Breitbart today (as a comment moderator on one of their news sites). I honestly had to google it to see for sure what it was... and I won't be linking there! I hope my google algorithm hasn't been poisoned as well by that far-right click (I'm kidding! Mostly).

I don't know what it is about me, but it seems people always assume I am a political conservative. Shoot, I'd say in many ways I'm more liberal than a democrat! I don't know, maybe I don't really know. I just know it's annoying when people assume I'm conservative and say things that really rankle me about climate change, or politics, or covid and whatnot. Or, maybe they DO know it rankles me, and that's why they say it. Who knows.

I was reading a NY Times article this morning - Two Covid Americas - about how politics is the biggest divider on the covid/vaccine issue, and there was this quote that caught my eye:

“The inconvenience of having to wear a mask is more than worth it to have people not think I’m a conservative.” - David Hogg

Ha! Yes, THAT'S ME! I'm one of the few people I know who still wears a mask at work, and anyplace else I think I should. I'm not afraid of getting covid. Heck, I'm boostered full bore, and will continue to get boosted, and I can't imagine that I haven't already had covid considering where I work... It's not a fear thing, it's honestly probably a political thing more than any other factor at this point. Plus the fact that, you know, three fourths of the people who have died from covid are over age 65 (which is what they said from the beginning), and I don't want to be one who spreads it to susceptible people!

So, what's frustrating is, even with my mask on, people still seem to think I'm a conservative. Harumpf. I guess there are worse things. And I don't know why I even care. I know some swell conservatives. Just once I'd like someone to look at me and think, "Now that guy's liberal af!" though.

But... maybe I'm not. Maybe I'm neither conservative nor liberal. Maybe I'm just a guy who goes about his day, trying to maintain some mindfulness of God and the people around me, and hoping I can keep the negative voices in my head to a minimum. And that's why I've been trying to avoid the news for the past year or so. I think it has helped get me through more days than not...

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"There is neither Jew nor Gentile, neither slave nor free, nor is there male and female, for you are all one in Christ Jesus." - Galatians 3:28

Thursday, March 11, 2021

Enough too much


How are you holding up, friends? It was about a year ago we started to realize the seriousness of the covid-19 pandemic. Places were bracing for a possible shutdown. Silly me, thinking it might be a couple of weeks. Little did we know just how much would change over the next 12 months.

And, geesh, as if that weren't enough... there was the election thing, attempted government overthrow, conspiracy theories, economic collapse (for some), church interruptions/changes, employment “hiccups”... Which doesn't even begin to touch on the 500,000+ extra lives that have been lost just this year, in just this country! 

Sometimes I wonder how we'd be doing even if covid never came 'round. Is it possible it may have actually helped some of us cope, or did it make it worse. I don't know...

Anyway, I've been contemplating this quote from Pastor/writer/theologian Brian Zahnd recently...

"We live in an age where the amount of daily information we receive that should enrage or grieve us far exceeds our capacity to bear it. Only God can bear all the sorrows of the world. We, on the other hand, have to choose what sorrows to bear. This is complicated, but true."

 

Yeah... there is a boatload of information we receive. It's incredible. And it's not just any ol' information. There is soooo much that SHOULD enrage or grieve us. Heavy stuff... and complicated.

I don't know about you, but more and more it seems like it's just too much. There's no way we can maintain. All is lost.

Or, like Brian says, maybe we need to learn to be selective in what sorrows we choose to bear. It's not all up to us, you know. We need help. In fact, maybe admitting that is where we need to start.

One of the best bits of advise/writing/musicianship I've heard to date is still the old song 'Hold Me Jesus' from Rich Mullins. It says it all as far as I'm concerned (though I hate this canned version compared to a live, raw one). Sometimes that has to be enough...

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1 Peter 5:6-11

Humble yourselves, therefore, under God’s mighty hand, that he may lift you up in due time. Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you.

Be alert and of sober mind. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour. Resist him, standing firm in the faith, because you know that the family of believers throughout the world is undergoing the same kind of sufferings.

And the God of all grace, who called you to his eternal glory in Christ, after you have suffered a little while, will himself restore you and make you strong, firm and steadfast. To him be the power for ever and ever. Amen.

 

Thursday, January 07, 2021

Seasons in the sun (tea)


We had joy, we had fun

We had seasons in the sun
But the hills that we climbed
Were just seasons out of time
Terry Jacks' version of 'Seasons In the Sun' was one of the more influential songs I remember from my childhood. It came out in 1973, so I was 9 years old - same age as my granddaughter (sorry for the edit but, after doing math, I was actually 11). While recent critics have labeled it 'one of the worst pop songs ever recorded,' there are few others that take me back to those youthful days of innocence. 

Ironically, Jacks didn't even write the song. It was originally written and performed in French by the Belgian poet-composer Jacques Brel in 1961. He wrote it in a whorehouse in Tangiers about an old man dying of a broken heart. It was a farewell to his priest, his best friend, and his wife, who had cheated on him with said best friend.

American poet Rod McKuen translated the lyrics to English, and in 1964 The Kingston Trio released the first English-language version of the song. This is the version Terry Jacks heard, which became the basis for his rendition.

Jacks changed the lyrics and sentiment of the song based on the circumstances of a close personal friend who died from leukemia. He later ended up buying a boat with the money he'd made from his biggest hit and rightfully named it 'Seasons in the Sun.' He began sailing up and down the west coast of Alaska and Canada and had some revelations along the way, eventually becoming a Christian environmental activist.

I find it amazing how this song written in a whorehouse became instrumental in someone changing their life, and the lives of others, for the better! One could say God may even enjoy such things.

Which brings us to yesterday...

My gosh, what a clusterfuffle. I'm not claiming any special insight or wisdom, but I anticipated something exactly like what happened in our nations capital. That explains my recent funk.

I've been sharing my fear of a civil war for months. In my opinion, trump got exactly what he wanted. He has never been about America, or democracy, or anything other than gaining attention for himself and seeing just how loyal people would be to him. I bet he had the biggest hard-on he's ever had in his life as rioters stormed into the capital building.

There is more I would like to say, but I think we've heard quite enough already. I wish they would remove him from office immediately, but have no confidence they will. I wonder how much lower he may still stoop before all is said and done.

At any rate, 'Seasons In the Sun' gives me a glimmer of hope. Perhaps some good may come out of this trump experiment yet. Maybe false christianity and 'fake news' and all the other conspiratorial shenanigans of the past four years - and, really, ever since the Tea Party has become mainstream - will finally be shown for what they are. And I am not claiming democrats will right the ship (unless God decides that's who he wants to do it), because what man intends and how God works things out don't always go hand in hand.

I suppose it's also true we may be headed right down the wormhole and the country will never recover. I don't know. Whatever happens, though, I'm trying to keep things in perspective. It's a big world; eternity is a long time; no one knows how things will turn out...

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Genesis 50:20

"You plotted evil against me, but God turned it into good, in order to preserve the lives of many people who are alive today because of what happened." (Joseph)

 

Thursday, October 08, 2020

Running thoughts


 There are so many things to say... or at least so much I'd like to say; so much others are saying; so much I feel like should be said...

And I really just don't know.

Don't you think most of us think we have this inner inkling - for lack of a better way to describe it - that gives us insight, and we simply cannot fathom how the 'other side' can be so stupid, so gullible, so duped?

This morning I read part of Luke chapter 11, where Jesus gives his "woe to you" lashings to Pharisees, lawyers and scribes. And they're like, "Hey, Jesus, you're kind of hurting our feelings." Like, they have no clue why he's saying these things TO THEM. They see themselves as the 'right' ones. Don't we all see ourselves that way? You know, how everyone with a gun thinks they're the "good guy with a gun."

I don't know. It got me to thinking... what about me? What am I missing? And that maybe the point of it is... I don't need to be the one who knows or is right. I need to know the ONE who knows and is right.

I mean, I've written before about my loathing of the president. I even posted on Facebook yesterday this thought I had: "Joe Biden wasn't my first choice, but it may turn out he's the absolute best choice for America at this point in history." I really thought that was profound. I thought it logical, reasonable, sensible. I believe it to be true! Yet I know there are a slough of people who think it totally moronic.

At some point, maybe we have to admit that none of us knows anything. Sure, we have to make choices and decisions, but I think we have to always be aware that we could be just as batshit crazy as the next person. It's that 'taking ourselves lightly' approach. I know I certainly need to take myself more lightly... about just about everything.

So, I don't know, that's just something I was thinking today. Emphasis on "I don't know."

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Now, as for actual RUNNING thoughts...

I ran again yesterday for the first time in a week. Once the pain and swelling subsided from the gout, I'd been trying to walk a few miles each day, but I didn't want to rush back to running too soon. I was just going to see how it went yesterday morning, and it went great!

I ended up making myself stop running at 5.1 miles, then walked another mile; and I did most of it at a 9:15-ish clip - which is pretty fast for me. I intended to do a light jog... but I felt SO GOOD. 

It's scary when I feel good like that. You know, because it usually means something bad is about to happen. But it hasn't. Yet.

My legs feel as good as they ever have. Ever. My feet and ankles... aren't terrible. Seriously, the top of my right foot bothers me some (what one doctor deemed mid-foot arthritis), but even that is way better than it had been. I still think it was more tendon related. Overall I don't feel tired or worn down or sore or tight or anything. It is literally the best I've felt in a long time.

So, yes, I'm still pondering another marathon next month. I don't know if it's stupid to do another one so soon, or if I'm stupid not to. I could just do a half marathon. It's not like that's anything to sneeze at. But... I don't know. I guess we'll see. One day at a time; that sort of thing.

A lot can happen in the blink of an eye.

***

"Trust God from the bottom of your heart;
    don’t try to figure out everything on your own.
Listen for God’s voice in everything you do, everywhere you go;
    he’s the one who will keep you on track." (Proverbs 3:5-6)

Thursday, October 01, 2020

Running on...


Yesterday I went for my first run after the marathon on Saturday. It was just a 5k followed by a mile walk, but that is the soonest I've run anything following a marathon. And I felt great! No pain, soreness, stiffness or anything! It was easy to smile, and while I wasn't intending to push myself I still managed about a 9:30 pace.

So... I'd really like to try for this marathon in November. I'm not much of a cold-weather runner though, so we will have to see how it goes. I will likely just shoot for an 8-10 mile run this weekend, and then alternate mid-to-long runs up until early November.

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Otherwise, things are pretty much just a muddled mess in the world as far as I'm concerned.

I did not watch the first presidential debate. I rarely have watched them. I especially wanted nothing to do with this one. And I'll be honest... DT repulses me! He always had - even when he was just a celebrity. There is absolutely nothing he could say or do at this point to change my mind about who I will vote for. Maybe I'm wrong, but I just can't. And this whole thing of "it's about the policies not the man"... Pfft. Seriously?!? The position of President of the United States is too big a role and requires too much responsibility. Besides, there is no amount of policy (if he even had any) that could make up for what he lacks.

Anyway... I say all that and... my devotions this morning was the Good Samaritan passage. Yeah, I know. I don't feel particularly neighborly right now, and it's tempting to think to myself, "I know, I should show DT some mercy." However, I think it's possible to show mercy but still maintain a sense of integrity about who qualifies for a position of leadership. So while I need to work on how I feel about him personally, it doesn't change whether I think he should be president or not.

As I finished reading the Good Samaritan passage in about 12 different Bible translations, I finally opened up Facebook. Wouldn't you know what the very first thing on my newsfeed was:

"Forgiveness is the name of love practiced among people who love poorly. The hard truth is that all people love poorly. We need to forgive and be forgiven every day, every hour increasingly. That is the great work of love among the fellowship of the weak that is the human family." - Henri Nouwen, You Are the Beloved

I love that quote. I've shared it many times on my own feed. But... dang... that is really difficult.

So I spent the next couple hours chewing on these two fine pieces of literature (and thought). I started several Facebook posts about one or the other or both... and finally just decided to write here...

It seems so... impossible. Can America survive DT? Will it be better or worse if he is replaced? I can't imagine him in a 2nd term, but I also can't imagine what his maniacal followers will do if/when he is replaced.

And then I think about running. You know, there was a time when the idea of me running a marathon seemed impossible. Let alone me running TWO marathons in the same year! So, I guess there's a lesson to be found.

Things look pretty dark in the world right now. It may take a lot of little acts of forgiveness and being neighborly (training in righteousness)... But perhaps it is possible after all.

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One day an expert in religious law stood up to test Jesus by asking him this question: “Teacher, what should I do to inherit eternal life?”

Jesus replied, “What does the law of Moses say? How do you read it?”

The man answered, “‘You must love the Lord your God with all your heart, all your soul, all your strength, and all your mind.’ And, ‘Love your neighbor as yourself.’”

“Right!” Jesus told him. “Do this and you will live!”

The man wanted to justify his actions, so he asked Jesus, “And who is my neighbor?”

Jesus replied with a story: “A Jewish man was traveling from Jerusalem down to Jericho, and he was attacked by bandits. They stripped him of his clothes, beat him up, and left him half dead beside the road.

“By chance a priest came along. But when he saw the man lying there, he crossed to the other side of the road and passed him by. A Temple assistant walked over and looked at him lying there, but he also passed by on the other side.

“Then a despised Samaritan came along, and when he saw the man, he felt compassion for him. Going over to him, the Samaritan soothed his wounds with olive oil and wine and bandaged them. Then he put the man on his own donkey and took him to an inn, where he took care of him. The next day he handed the innkeeper two silver coins, telling him, ‘Take care of this man. If his bill runs higher than this, I’ll pay you the next time I’m here.’

“Now which of these three would you say was a neighbor to the man who was attacked by bandits?” Jesus asked.

The man replied, “The one who showed him mercy.”

Then Jesus said, “Yes, now go and do the same.”

(Luke 10:25-37)

 

Thursday, August 27, 2020

The pro-life lie


Let's face it, "abortion" is nothing but a talking point for conservative politicians.

I've been thinking that thought for some time now. Words have failed me on how to get it across.

Then comes this article from David French "Do Pro-Lifers Who Reject Trump Have 'Blood On Their Hands'?" Such a good and worthwhile read.

I was informed of the French article by Matt Tebbe. And, let me say, if you are concerned about the Christian faith, social justice, and society as a whole, YOU SHOULD BE FOLLOWING MATT ON SOCIAL MEDIA! Anyway, this was his Facebook post regarding the article:
**Abortion post, hold onto your butts.**
This should bring everyone together in perfect harmony.
David French, Conservative commentator and committed pro-lifer, recently wrote a blog post about abortion in America. It was covered by The Holy Post Podcast, hosted by Phil Vischer, Skye Jethani, and Christian Taylor. I'll link to both the blog post - and - the podcast in the comments below.
French isn't voting for Trump.
And he doesn't buy into the logic that he will have 'blood on his hands' for this decision, re: abortion.
I encourage you to *read his article* but here are his main points:
"Decades of data and decades of legal, political, and cultural developments have combined to teach us a few, simple realities about abortion in the United States:
1. Presidents have been irrelevant to the abortion rate;
2. Judges have been forces of stability, not change, in abortion law;
3. State legislatures have had more influence on abortion than Congress;
4. Even if Roe is overturned, abortion will be mostly unchanged in the U.S.; and
5. The pro-life movement has an enormous cultural advantage. "
Summarizing from Podcast and Blog Post:
RE: #1 - Abortion rates have been declining steadily for 40 years; they decline just as much or more when there's a Democrat President as when there's a Republican President.
RE: #2 - Only 1 sitting SCOTUS has said RvW should be overturned (Thomas) - and - even most conservative SCOTUS votes to uphold past precedence.
RE: #4 - overturning RvW isn't going to solve abortion problem in U.S. RvW didn't make abortion legal; it made it illegal for States to make it illegal. If it's overturned abortion will be left up to the States once again. And a majority of Americans live in most populated States that are typically progressive - so - abortions will still happen. Additionally - the abortion rates today are LOWER than before RvW!! Think about that...
Best case scenario: overturning RvW would reduce abortions by 10% in U.S.
RE: #5 - Practically no one *wants* an abortion.
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So why do I post this? A few reasons:
1. If you want to be pro-life, go for it (I am pro-life).
2. Don't be deluded that electing a Republican President is the best thing you can do for pro-life causes.
3. Pro-life is more than anti-abortion for Jesus and the Holy Scriptures.
4. "Pro-life" has become a practically meaningless, weaponized, political tool (on both Right and Left) that keeps people locked into a Holy War with a promise *that is mostly a lie*. Christians: we are being used as pawns in a power struggle of Empire.
5. If your vote for POTUS is freed from the fantasy that both the Right and Left want you to believe about it re: abortion how would that free you to be political? To vote locally and nationally?
6. For Christians: the promise offered you about abortion by the GOP is largely built on lies and fantasies. The data doesn't back up the unholy marriage of Christians with the GOP. You are free from serving this Master who will never deliver and can't contain the Hope you have for justice and life.
Better stop there.
There's another post about how the early Church saw pre-birth life, abortion, etc and how we would do well to recover some of their categories imo...but this is already long enough.
Kumbaya everyone.

So, I know, there's a lot of info there. There are so many more things I would like to say or repeat but... I would just be repeating what's already there. I may discuss more later, but at least wanted to get this down.

Literally no one wants to get an abortion. Yet every election cycle good Christian folk are led to believe they MUST vote republican or it's the same as killing unborn children. This is not true. It is a lie! Do not be deceived.

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Isaiah 26:3
“You will keep in perfect peace those whose minds are steadfast, because they trust in you."

Friday, February 21, 2020

Saturday morning projects, money-making skills, and medicare-for-all

This is a random drop spot for some recent articles I found interesting:

1. 100 Saturday Morning Projects
https://www.msn.com/en-us/lifestyle/home-and-garden/100-saturday-morning-projects/ss-BBZLpaq?li=BBnb7Kz#image=1 
There are some projects here that would be helpful to know for later, and some that are just good ideas to keep in mind.

2. 17 Money-Making Skills You Can Learn By The End of 2020
https://www.msn.com/en-us/money/careers/17-money-making-skills-you-can-learn-by-the-end-of-2020/ss-BBTNRVi?li=BBnb7Kz#image=1
You just never know when you might need a new, or additional, job. Some of these are interesting...

3. Here's That Medicare-For-All Study Bernie Sanders Keeps Bringing Up
https://www.msn.com/en-us/money/insurance/heres-that-medicare-for-all-study-bernie-sanders-keeps-bringing-up/ar-BB10ctVo?li=BBnbfcN
I honestly don't know much about... much... but I have become somewhat of a Bernie convert recently. I don't know whether I will vote for him or not, but I like a lot of his ideas. Especially this one that apparently could save up to $500 million in healthcare spending. I have my doubts about some of the figures, and I realize it will be a complicated and difficult task... but I just have to think there is a better way out there than what we currently have going on in this country. So... here's a link to a study.

Wednesday, November 07, 2018

Working a health fair and other random fare


I manned a table at a health fair for the YMCA yesterday. It was held at a factory not far from my home and this was my first time doing anything like this for the Y. It went okay. I actually kind of enjoyed it, if you can believe that.

Of course, as with most things, I wasn't really told anything beforehand. I got an email the day of which gave me the address of the company and which door I was to enter through. I was also given a cart full of display items. So I arrived at the business, made my way inside, and was ushered into a smallish room with a half dozen other people doing the same thing. There were also displays set up in the main room downstairs. I'm not sure how we were divided but I didn't mind being out of the main area.

I set out some literature but didn't put up the big sign they gave me because no one else had a big sign. Plus it was a pretty small table. Then I sat there and looked at my phone like everyone else. Finally a few workers started coming through, so I chit-chatted and gave away free day passes to the Y. I wasn't sure what else I was supposed to do but everyone seemed content. It went from 2-4 pm. So at 4, I packed up my things and left.

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I suppose it was a little ironic that the company was located on "American Way." I'm serious. I thought about that as I pulled out onto Bluffton Road and drove down the street to my polling place. In case you forgot, yesterday was election day. So I went inside and stood in line to do my civic duty. It took 35 minutes to punch the few buttons I did. And... as usual... none of it mattered. Not one single candidate I voted for won.

I'm actually more ashamed than upset this morning. I can't believe I let politics get me so depressed. As I wrote yesterday, I am having a hard time dealing with feeling so wrong and unsure about everything. Meh... whatever.

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So, the other day I put this quote by Chesterton on the white board at work. To be honest, I don't think I even know what it means. It seemed like the right thing to write at the time. When I look at it it makes me feel better. But then I feel stupid and wish I hadn't written it because I don't know if it should or not.

Anyway, it's there, and I don't feel like writing anything else, so I guess it will stay there until someone else writes something... maybe Saturday. I wish it were Saturday now...

Tuesday, November 06, 2018

How can i be so wrong? (trump comes to town)


The 45th president of the United States was in town last night. Apparently he's the first sitting US president to visit Fort Wayne since Ronald Reagan in 1982. Equally surprising is that it was the day before 2018 mid-term elections!

There were, of course, tons of people there. The local media was out in full force. I suppose there were a number of protesters as well. What I found somewhat interesting was... how little it was talked about "on the street." I worked 9am-5pm at the downtown Y and only had one person even say anything about it the entire day! I'm guessing that says more about the nature of division in our country than a lack of interest.

Personally, I continue to be confounded (dumbfounded) by the popularity of this guy. I mean, I realize I am "different"... I always have been regarding politics, religion, and other social issues... I just don't get how I can be THAT different! How can I be so wrong about what is right and wrong?!?

I feel quite bewildered and not just a little defeated. It's like I don't know anything about anything. So, this morning I decided to take a step back, and simplify. I spoke 'the Lord's Prayer,' the 23rd Psalm, forced a smile across my face, and tried to just enjoy the moment I was in. I am, after all, okay. In spite of everything going on around me, regardless of issues, disappointments and distractions... there is also much to be thankful for.

So, on this election day 2018, I am beginning the day at work at the Y. I work 5am-11am downtown, then I will log some miles on the treadmill, then get some lunch, then I am manning a table for the Y at a health fair in some factory in town, then I will enjoy the evening with the grandkids again. Oh, and I will likely go vote at some point today. Though I'm not at all sure why.

Honestly, I am often hesitant to vote because it seems whoever I vote for usually loses. I guess the times I voted for President Obama it worked out, but otherwise... yeah, I tend to always side with the wrong candidates. So I'm usually afraid to vote for who I think should win, because I don't want to curse them. I know, it's weird.

Anyway, this is what's on my mind today. I'm feeling peculiar. What's new.

Thursday, October 25, 2018

Voting guilt


This is not a conversation for Facebook (imho)... but since there are only a handful of people aware this blog exists.... hopefully it's safe to say something here. 😐

It's election time again - mid-terms at that - and once again a big slice of Americana feels it necessary every single eligible voter take to the polls. I have previously lamented my distaste for the phrase, "If you don't vote you can't complain." But now there's something more...

I vote in some elections. Sometimes I don't. I am not against voting (Please hear me say that: I am not against voting!). What I don't understand, or necessarily like, are the people who seem intent on GUILTING people into thinking they have to vote! Yes, I understand it is a right and privilege. I think every eligible citizen should have the opportunity to exercise this right. What bothers me is the idea of almost FORCING people to vote, when they may or may not even know who or what to vote for!

YOU COULD BE WRONG
It is especially unsettling when I see/hear people blame non-voters for the "wrong side" winning. I mean, how do they know the people who didn't vote were going to vote the way they wanted? Maybe they would have lost even worse!

I remember a time before the 2016 presidential election, I suggested people should not have to feel compelled to vote. My thinking at that time was... I knew of a number of people who didn't like either candidate - Trump or Clinton - but felt they HAD to choose one or the other. I'd guess I knew more conservatives that didn't like Trump than Democrats that didn't like Hillary. In my opinion, if you didn't like or trust Donald Trump, you shouldn't feel you have to vote for him! I think it's entirely possible he received as many votes as he did because people simply felt they HAD TO vote.

WE COULD ALL BE WRONG
Although, I say all this, and I honestly don't trust the process enough to believe our votes make much difference. Which is why I often don't vote. Maybe I'm just cynical but I have always thought this past election was rigged, and have heard nothing since to change my mind.

Not to mention the fact Hillary supposedly received more of the popular vote but still lost. I've also never really understood the 'electoral college.' I'm not sure most of us average citizens even understand what kind of government we really have (it's not a true democracy). 

IT'S COMPLICATED
Throw on top of this the fact many people choose to not vote for actual legitimate reasons. Some place their trust in a higher power. Some really do feel it worthwhile and necessary to oppose the entire system. Some have other reasons.

Personally, I believe things are much more complicated than simply choosing a party or casting a ballot. I tend to find myself more liberal than most democrats when it comes to social/economic issues, and more taken with moral/life issues than the furthest right of republicans. I believe simple-minded partisanship and single-issue voters are largely responsible for this cluster of a mess we currently have on our hands!

So, anyway, that's what I think. I say, if you want to vote, then you should. If you don't want to vote, then by all means, don't. Shoot, if you want to encourage others to do the same... have at it! But, please, let's stop with the guilt already. Voting is not the do all and end all of public civil difference-making. There are plenty of other ways to get involved, even if you do vote! Forcing guilt upon people is not only misguided and unhelpful, I think it's downright wrong! Can I get a 2nd??? 😉

Tuesday, October 16, 2018

AAR presentation

Son Isaac informed us he will be presenting a paper at the American Academy of Religion Annual Program this November in Denver, Colorado. This is something he has attended the past several years and is a pretty big deal to be chosen as a presenter. Looks like pretty heady stuff.

This is a screenshot of his section in the program. I'm not sure what all that means, but this is the area he is doing his Phd work in, so I suppose he knows what it's about. :)

Pretty cool!

Sunday, October 14, 2018

Center for civil and human rights

We visited the Center for Civil and Human Rights when we were in Atlanta last weekend. It was another of those really interesting places that left us feeling inspired, ashamed, and somber all at the same time.

Perhaps the biggest eye-opener of all (or re-opener) was the dark realization that the whole MAGA (make america great again) phenomenon is about UNDOING the progress that's been made in civil and human rights over the years. I'm guessing this is not a popular place with Trump supporters. Anyway...

One of the more powerful exhibits was this interactive station where you sat at a lunch counter with headphones on. It gave you a chance to hear AND FEEL what it was like to have been an African-American during the early days of the civil rights movement with people yelling and screaming at you and kicking the counter and your seat. It was pretty intense. I cannot imagine having had to go through that.


I was actually quite surprised with this display citing Atlanta's place in civil rights. I think this is pretty cool. If you can't read it, it says:
Atlanta differed from other Southern cities in important ways. Since the early 20th century, the "Atlanta style" of managing race relations had white and black leaders meeting behind the scenes to decide what was in the best interest of the community. The emergence of black political clout in the 1940s contributed to the election of relatively moderate mayors, rather than hard-line segregationists. Mindful of the city's image, in the 1960s Mayor William B. Hartfield and other local promoters cast Atlanta as "The City Too Busy to Hate," to distinguish it from other Southern communities. A violent reaction to desegregation was seen as bad for business, and key leaders embraced negotiation and compromise instead.

Certainly, a deep gap often existed between the rhetoric of "The City Too Busy to Hate" and the realities of life in a segregated city. And Atlanta experienced its share of violent episodes and failed leadership. Yet the city's more moderate views on desegregation and the personal relationships established across the color line helped set Atlanta apart.

I also liked this quote from Diane Nash. Although, it can be used equally by different people depending on their beliefs. I suppose gun-rights activists feel they are doing the same thing as protesters using non-violent means. Anyway, it was interesting.



And this one...

This exhibit outlining nonviolence training during the civil rights movement was pretty interesting as well. I wish I'd taken a picture of the entire thing. If you click on the pic you can enlarge it and read what people had to go through. Again, I can't imagine what it must have been like during that time - which wasn't all that long ago!


These last two pictures were from the human rights area. It was not as large as the civil rights exhibit because it's just been added and was on just one floor of the building. Still, I thought these signs "The basics of being human," and suggestions for "forming a more perfect union" were pretty good.



It seemed there were some other things I was going to share about this visit but I must have waited too long to write about it. Anyway, it was definitely interesting and not just a tad bit eye-opening. I'm glad we went.

Monday, November 06, 2017

The trouble with trickle-down (listen up)


I've been thinking about the concept of 'trickle-down' theories lately, and the pitfalls of such. I'm sure growing up in a family of simple, working-class, democtrats has given me some bias against trickle-down economics, but I've been thinking of it more from a leadership standpoint.

'Trickle-Down Economics' (or supply-side economics) is, of course, the idea that giving tax breaks to the most wealthy (individuals and businesses) will then generate more jobs and lower-priced products, thus benefitting everyone. It may have some merit as a theory, but has fairly obviously resulted in nothing more than creating a wider disparity between rich and poor. The rich get richer and the poor get poorer, and the middle-class is really the only thing trickling down - into the lower class. Even Ronald Reagan's budget director eventually fessed to the fact that 'supply-side' was just another name for 'trickle-down' economics.

It would be easy to say that good ol' American greed is the culprit in the trickling trouble, but I'm wondering if it's something else. Certainly there are greedy grinches who have no intention of helping those in the gallows below, but there are also some very kind and well-intentioned well-to-do whose funneling fails just the same.

WHAT DOES THIS HAVE TO DO WITH LEADERSHIP?
I believe many of our leadership theories and practices work from much the same principle as trickle-down economics. Regardless of whether you are talking about the business world or the church (is there a difference?), it seems so much focus is placed on those at the proverbial "top," and inevitably the flow is stopped or mis-directed at some point before it reaches the "bottom."

I suppose what started me thinking about this was the local YMCA community where I work. Since my wife works in the administrative office I have been privileged to rub shoulders with some of the folks "at the top." As a part-time employee I was also required to attend the "Y Welcome" class which all employees are required to do so we can learn what the Y is all about.

Let me be clear that I am all in on the Y's mission and values and have great respect for the people who put these things together and try to instill them throughout the entire company. That said, though, being someone who works on the lower end of the spectrum, there is a definite disconnect between what the "big dogs" are pushing.... and what the "bottom feeders" are delivering. The trickle-down theories - or vision & values - are not making their way to the people on the ground working in the local facilities (with some exceptions, of course).

WITHOUT A RELATIONSHIP BETWEEN THOSE AT THE TOP AND THOSE ON THE GROUND, THE MESSAGE IS NOT GOING TO MAKE IT.

I see this as the problem with any type of "trickle" theory. If the wealthy cannot relate to the poor (and vice-versa), there is never going to be an economic system that works for everyone. Likewise, company leaders who have no relationship with their average workers and what they face are never going to see their vision and values passed on - however good those may be.

If you want to take it into the church world, I suppose you could equate it to church leadership expecting to pass on the making of disciples by simply 'telling' people to make disciples, or even telling them 'how.' But if people are never shown, if it is never exemplified, or if there is no exchange of feedback and input, I believe we simply end up with more of what we've got.

WHAT TO DO?
I do not claim to have a solution, and it's simplistic to suggest we all "just get along and work together." However, I think we have somehow got to try! Whether we are talking bi-partisan politics, business ethics, or making disciples, working against one another doesn't seem to accomplish anything - at least anything good.

Isn't there a way to get parties to participate together in solving problems, to establish teamwork in the working world, and to abide together in Christ? I'm not suggesting full-on socialism, or a leaderless land, but simply seeing one another as human beings. Learning to listen; respecting our differences; perhaps even planting seeds of positivity about this place called earth so we make life just a little better for everyone.

I don't know.... It sounds cliche and people have been dreaming this dram for centuries, I know.... but what's the alternative?

A SIMPLE SUGGESTION
I know this won't solve anything, but I've been reading a book on listening. Actually, I seem to be hearing a lot about listening lately. I've been trying to put it into practice little by little. It's not always easy, and I often forget, but I thought these fews thoughts were helpful*:
  • It is a listening skill to acknowledge the person who is talking.
  • It is a listening skill to help keep the conversation going.
  • It is a listening skill to show some approval of the other person and what they are saying.
  • It is a listening skill to be able to feed back to the other person what they said and intended rather than what you selected from what they said.
(*Richard Dimbelby and Graeme Burton, More than Words: An Introduction to Communication, as shared in  Lynne Baab's book The Power of Listening)

So, that's just some stuff I was thinking about. 

Thursday, October 05, 2017

Patriotism


I do not understand patriotism. The concept and idea simply do not resonate in my mind. I don't get it! Merriam-Webster's definition of patriotism is pretty straightforward: "love for or devotion to one's country." I don't understand how one 'loves' a country.

The closest I can come to understanding it is something like school pride. You know, "I'm going to root for my school, and therefore be rooting against every other school." Perhaps I've just never been competitive enough, but I never understood that either. Sure, you play against opposing teams, but I can't say that I have ever wished for superiority over others.

To me, we are all human beings. I don't see how where we live changes anything. I mean, if I were born in Denmark, would I think Danes were the best? It's just where I live. So what is with this sudden resurgence in American patriotism? I have my theories, and I'm certainly not going to share them on Facebook, but it's whacked out as far as I'm concerned.

I am especially perplexed when it comes to "Christians," and I consider bible passages such as:
  • "For this world is not our permanent home; we are looking forward to a home yet to come." (Hebrews 13:14)
  • "Friends, this world is not your home, so don't make yourselves cozy in it. Don't indulge your ego at the expense of your soul. Live an exemplary life among the natives so that your actions will refute their prejudices. Then they'll be won over to God's side and be there to join in the celebration when he arrives." (1 Peter 2:11-12)
  • "Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind." (Romans 12:2)

I don't know, I suppose I'm just reading too much into things, or making too much of it. To be clear, I am not AGAINST America, I just don't see what makes it so special. Especially as one who has placed my hope and trust in God (as a Christian).

If you ask me, what we're seeing in America right now is a heightening of CIVIL RELIGION rather than Christian religion. This would be defined as:
"American civil religion is a sociological theory that a nonsectarian quasi-religious faith exists within the United States with sacred symbols drawn from national history. Scholars have portrayed it as a cohesive force, a common set of values that foster social and cultural integration."
Beyond the religious aspect - in scope and degree - I think we also have to start considering some of these:
I believe these are more appropriate examples of what we're seeing than a mere patriotism, yet I still don't understand how we can love a country over and above "people." Are we not all human? Apparently a lot of people don't think so. I find this sad. In fact, it's almost breaking my heart. I can't stand to look at my news feed on Facebook or watch television news anymore. It's becoming more and more blatant, and accepted. I honestly do not know what to do.

Friday, February 17, 2017

Cleaning up washington politics

The truth is I'm not all that smart about politics, but unfortunately I have occasion to drag myself into interest. I don't understand much about world affairs, the electoral college, or political science in general. However I do care about people, and the workings of society have a lot to do with how people are treated and live. So I read about things now and then, and these are some things I think could help. Maybe. At least in my brain.
  1. Healthcare Overhaul - I am tempted to be in favor of a single-payer national health insurance program, though I've lately been leaning more toward some type of all-payer rate setting of some kind. From what little I've read, the biggest culprit in the outrageous price-gouging going on with healthcare is not necessarily the insurance industry (which a single-payer program would minimize). It has been suggested that government oversight of healthcare services and products would better serve to bring health costs down. Setting a hard price on medicines, procedures, and other products would hinder the pharmaceutical rapage of society more than trying to regulate insurance companies. It seems to go more toward the source of the problem than dealing with the symptoms.
  2. Term Limits for Congress - Not only that, but how about if they were held to the same laws and treatment (healthcare/retirement) as every other citizen. Why is this even an issue anymore? I don't think I need to say more.
  3. Campaign Spending Limit - How about if we set a cap on how much politicians could spend on campaigning. It would cut down on the amount of time we have to hear negative adds, plus it might hinder the influence corporations and lobby groups have in politics. How about a limit of $5 million for federal positions, $500,000 for state, and $50,000 for local elections??
  4. No Corporate Campaign Donations - As if #3 were not enough, let's just eliminate the ability for corporations and groups to donate altogether. You raise money from individuals - whether it's a lot of small donations or a few large ones wouldn't matter as much if #3 were in place.
So, that's my four-point plan for cleaning up Washington politics. Well, probably not really, but these are some things I have been thinking about and it's my blog so... there ya have it.

Friday, January 20, 2017

I am the only one to blame for this


Today is inauguration day 2016 in the United States of America. ....

My feelings about Donald Trump have never been favorable. I believe he is disrespectful, immoral, unethical, lacks character, integrity, and is not qualified for the position of president. It has nothing to do with him being a republican, but is strictly personal.

President Obama, on the other hand, is and was "my" president. I refer to him as such because he is the first (and so far, only) president with whom I have identified. We are in the same age bracket, we are both mid-westerners, he "speaks my language" and represents to me how a deep-thinking, dignified person of honor (and faith) should carry themselves. I have the utmost respect for him in spite of any differences we may have on issues.

So, I admit that I am sad to not only see President Obama leave the White House, but to see such a contrast in his replacement. I am sad to no longer feel proud to be an American. I am sad to no longer believe I can trust that our country will at least strive to do the "right thing." I am sad because, honestly - and a little ashamedly - I feel like we lost. There is a sense of defeat, of hopelessness, a sense that we gave it a good shot but in the end - money won out. I feel like a kid who was allowed to dream for a time, but now it's time to put dreams away and let the big boys do what they intended to do all along. Right or wrong, that's how I feel.

And I'm ashamed. I'm ashamed at my level of fear over not only what Trump may do, but all the lunatic Tea Party-ers and big businessmen now in power. I'm ashamed because I got so sucked into putting my hope in politicians and people and presidents. I'm ashamed over the sorrow I feel and the divide I've allowed take root in my brain regarding not only the politicians but their supporters as well. I'm ashamed at how I was 'soaring on the wings of selfish pride.... and I flew too high.' 

This election and transfer of offices has had too much impact on me and occupied too much of my thinking. I have been overly focused on this world, and not enough on where my true home is. I have not risen above it as on wings of eagles.

So when I got up this morning, this inauguration day, I sat at the computer for a long time contemplating what to post or whether to post. Should I remain silent today, in my black shirt and downward gaze? Should I spew my displeasure for all of Facebook to see? Should I stew and wallow in the shadow of my President becoming 'their' President? No, I chose music instead. I ended up being late for work trying to find just the right song to express my feelings. Finally I found the song, and then I had to decide on the best version.

This morning I posted the Jars of Clay song "Worlds Apart" on Facebook. I listened to it in several different versions, maybe 5 times or so. I'm glad I did. It helped me deal with my sadness, but also opened my eyes to my folly. It brought me back to a kingdom reality, not of this world. I posted this version: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0IpbkUAItGk, though this older one might be my favorite: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iq_El_J7jMM.


The old regime and the new are very much worlds apart. However, Barach Obama was not the Savior, and Donald Trump is not the devil. May I keep reminding myself, this world is not my home - it is worlds apart from my true home and the kingdom I should be living in. I remember thinking how terrible it was when Ronald Reagan - an actor! - was going to be president. It worked out fine, and this too shall pass. It's up to me to fix my eyes on Jesus. No one can ever take that away.

"Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles. And let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us, fixing our eyes on Jesus, the pioneer and perfecter of faith. For the joy set before him he endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God. Consider him who endured such opposition from sinners, so that you will not grow weary and lose heart." - Hebrews 12:1-3 NIV
"Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable--if anything is excellent or praiseworthy--think about such things." - Philippians 4:8

Wednesday, January 11, 2017

2016 remembered


Well I suppose now that we're into the second week of January I should probably pull together a review of the past year. It was an 'interesting' year. There were plenty of good things, but I'd put myself in the category of people drained by the election process. Who knows what next year will hold.

2016 saw us change churches for the first time since I quit pastoring. We also left the small group at the old church, but started meeting with Tom and Kim for weekly Bible Study, and serving in a mission group at the new church.

Physically I did my usual downward slide as the winter months approached. I went through a phase of drinking waaaay too much earlier in the year and through summer, and I drank harder than I probably have ever before. Fortunately I am out of that and I feel pretty good now - both physically and mentally/emotionally.

I'm reading less now than at the start of the year, and also doing less personal introspection. I think it's good for me to just live for awhile. I'm feeling pretty relaxed right now.

So, here are some of the highlights gleaned from my monthly posts through last year:

JANUARY
  • I guess I did set down some "goals" - or, rather "rhythms" - I wanted to practice through the year. I did finish reading through the Bible (again), and Jane and I are still praying together on a nightly basis. I stuck with exercise and eating right for awhile, and I still eat pretty good, but I have been a real slug when it comes to exercise lately. I haven't done much of anything since October, and it shows.
  • I left the weekly pastor's breakfast I'd been attending for 16 years. I still meet with Tom once a week, so I haven't felt too out of touch.
  • I updated our home computer (laptop) to Windows 10.
  • Anna turned 5. 
  • I was reading (and blogging) Michael Frost's 'Jesus the Fool: The Mission of the Unconventional Christ.'
FEBRUARY
  • Denver beat Carolina in the Super Bowl. We watched the commercials at Mike's.
  • We did our first Candida Cleanse, and I lost 8 lbs. in 7 days.
  • I shaved off my beard of 1 1/2 years growth.
  • Jane made a trip to Buda.
  • We got a new dishwasher.
  • Jane once again had a birthday on the 27th.
  • I was reading (and blogging) Jen Hatmaker's ' 'Interrupted: When Jesus Wrecks Your Comfortable Christianity.'
MARCH
APRIL
  • I made my first children's picnic table out of pallets (the yellow one we still have).
  • I bought a sawzall.
  • I continued reading (and blogging) Michael Frost's 'Surprise the World! The Five Habits of Highly Missional People.' 
  • I attended probably my last Midwest Region Conference Convention. It was held in Muncie, IN, and Jane was there with me.
  • I mowed the lawn for the first time on the 17th, and that is also when we decided to hire out our fertilization/care to Spring-Green.
  • We saw the Dave Rawlings Machine, with Gillian Welch, in Bloomington, IN (our first trip there).
  • Caleb turned 2 years old.
  • I started reading Eugene Peterson's 'Eat This Book: A Conversation in the Art of Spiritual Reading.'
MAY
JUNE
  • Son Isaac turned 28.
  • Jane and I spent a week in Myrtle Beach for vacation. We drove. I read two John Steinbeck books: 'The Pearl,' and 'The Moon Is Down.'
  • Daughter Carrie turned 31.
  • We stopped attending our small group at Grace.
  • We decided on C2G as our new church home.
  • Jane and I ran the Ribfest 5k.
  • Drew's grandpa died.
  • Tom and I closed the 'Elevate Coach' account.
  • This is apparently when I stopped blogging about books I was reading.
JULY
  • Jane and I ran the Runners On Parade 5k.
  • We went to Sheffield's 'Music on Main' and Jane, Carrie and I ran the 5k that morning. We also went to the Silo and Brothers, as well as visiting family.
  • Isaac and Ricci visited.
  • We started serving with the team of people at our church who make and serve food to the homeless and under-served at the library. 
  • I found out I was being sued for something at work that I didn't have anything to do with (and it's still going on).
 AUGUST
  • We bought a 2nd twin bed for $150 (new).
  • Allison and Greg came for a visit.
  • Drew Carrie went to Atlanta for the weekend to see Isaac and Ricci. We kept the kids.
  • ANNA STARTED KINDERGARTEN.
  • Jane started working full-time at the YMCA, as Records & Receipts Specialist at the Metro office.
 SEPTEMBER
  • I bought a new pair of running shoes. Another pair of Adidas.
  • Bennett started preschool.
  • I attended my first "Grandparents Day," at Anna's school.
  • Jane, Carrie and Anna met my mom in Bloomington, IL for the weekend.
OCTOBER
  • I ran my 4th half-marathon. Jane did her 3rd.
  • Bennett turned 4.
  • My parents came for Bennett's birthday.
  • Jane and I ran the River City Rat Race 10k.
  • We got a new garbage disposal unit.
NOVEMBER
  • I had my 54th birthday.
  • We spent the weekend in Atlanta with Isaac & Ricci.
DECEMBER
  • We saw Joe Bonamassa at the Embassy
  • Drew Carrie went to Florida for the weekend and we kept the kids.
  • Bennett's first Christmas program at preschool.
  • Isaac, Ricci and the 2 dogs spent some time with us up until Christmas Day.
  • Anna participated in the Christmas Eve service at St. Pauls.
  • Drew Carrie and kids went to my parents on Christmas Day. We did not.

Tuesday, November 15, 2016

In on the weekend (we need a bigger world)


Jane, Carrie and the grandkids went back home this past weekend and stayed with my parents. They also visited Tanners Orchard and some other family. I stayed here because I had to work Saturday. Plus, I dunno, back home just doesn't have the appeal it used to for me.

So, I pretty much didn't do anything. Friday and Saturday night I went to the old stomp with a couple friends I hadn't hung out with in awhile. Saturday I worked from 9-2. Sunday I just lazed around the house until Jane got home. I didn't even go to church Sunday morning.

It's rare that I miss a Sunday worship service even when it's just me. I planned to go, but I wasn't feeling all that great (lingering cold/sinus stuff/hangover), and.... I dunno.... I'm just kind of not into things at the moment. We will be traveling this weekend and will likely not attend a service again. There was a time when this would have thrown my life for a loop. Sadly, it doesn't much seem to matter anymore.

I can't blame this on Trump, because I don't really even care about that. But I guess I am still a bit thrown by the seeming "empowering" of  a certain segment of society. It's like somebody's let the crazies take over. Although I realize that's just my opinion, and it's probably pretty narrow at that.

There seems to be a mounting steam that people really feel the need to speak up right now - on both "sides." Personally, I'm not interested in speaking up at all. I hear and read what some people are saying, and there's simply no point in trying to reason or argue. It's like the world is divided and we can only see one side of the divide. To try to convince someone on the other side of your side is futile - they're never going to see your side unless they're actually ON your side.

So, at best, I hope to resort to a Eugene Peterson-ish approach. A much more subversive stance. I don't want to argue; I hate confrontation; and I don't see it as my responsibility to get anyone to agree with me anyway. I suppose some would see this as a bit cowardly, and maybe it is, but I don't know of another way right now.

As a result, I'm feeling pretty small. And I'm not so sure that's a bad thing. Maybe what we need is a bigger world right now. What with technology and social media and things being what they are, maybe this idea of a super-smallish world has given us too much familiarity with one another; or given us a feeling of empowerment that might be better fit to only a few, rather than the masses.

One of the best responses I saw anywhere to the post-election trauma many people felt was from my Canadian friend Whiskey Prajer. He wrote an enormously thoughtful and tender piece about how he answered his teary-eyed daughter the day after Trump became king. I especially liked this bit...
I also said that political arguments are usually driven to polarities that simplify life in unhelpful ways. Before she was born there was a moment when I woke up to discover that Canada might, in a few days' time, not be Canada any more. The thought caused me a great deal of anxiety, until I heard someone on the radio say, "Political theory and argument exists in a realm way beyond our back-yards, and our passions expand to meet those borders. It's important to return our gaze to the window that looks onto our back-yards, and to take confident steps into the immediate neighborhood, and reconnect with the people of our communities, to keep our passions in check, and to keep our shared sense of humanity sustained and healthy."
"So make sure you have a good breakfast," I said. "Be kind to yourself. And make a point of being kind to someone else. Every day's a gift."
Yes, that is good advice. I am thankful for the good and wise people I know. I have a "window," and the view ain't half bad sometimes. Perhaps what I need is to refine my gaze, eat a good breakfast, and be kind. I will try.

Thursday, November 10, 2016

The most disappointing thing


I've waited to say anything about Election 2016 until having a chance to process it awhile. I realize I am on record as saying I was not going to vote - I agreed to abide by whatever came about. I don't really know that it's anybody's business though, and quite frankly it's beside the point. But I did want to write something down for posterity's sake, and I didn't want it to be a knee-jerk reaction. So here are my thoughts on the 2016 election in which Donald Trump was chosen President of the United States and Republicans in general scored pretty well across the board.

The Voting
When I initially found out, I was pretty shocked. No, not shocked. I was dumbfounded. Blindsided. Numb. I did not foresee this happening in a million years. I wore black yesterday in mourning. I think I could have accepted just about any other of the top Republican candidates and I wouldn't have been surprised. Originally I expected it to be Jeb Bush. To think that Donald did this fair and square.... it simply does not compute in my brain.

Now, I say that not to knock anyone who may have voted for him. I am fully aware of the hatred for Hillary and the intricacies of party loyalty. I am just surprised because Trump has shown himself - in my opinion at least - to be a vile and contentious man with the maturity level of a spoiled second grader. He is not trustworthy. We know he is not going to play by the rules. Furthermore, this strikes me as almost the exact opposite of how I thought America would think and vote. I thought everyone was fed up with the ugly hand of big business lobbying and manipulating politics and running the country into the ground. Now it seems big business has gone from behind-the-scenes political powering, to literally moving right into the White House!! Boy do I feel stupid. A Facebook friend of mine (Jason Boyett) summed it up pretty well:
"Apparently everything I thought I knew about America was wrong.
Apparently everything I thought I knew about Christians was wrong.
Apparently everything I thought I knew about politics was wrong.
This being the case, I guess Donald Trump is going to be the best president we’ve ever had, and not the worst. Please let me be wrong one more time."
So for me anyway, this election isn't so much about just Donald and Hillary. And it's left me wondering if I know anything or anyone at all.

The Evangelicals
Which brings me to the second area of concern/shock/surprise: the role of evangelical Christians in this election. Some statistics indicate as many as 80% of white evangelical Christians voted for Don. Many people are crediting them with being the brunt of his swing; the muscle behind his madness; the very demographic he sailed his boat on. Again, I just do not understand.

I realize the weight of the hate heaped on Hillary in regard to her stance on abortion. I also know she has been occasioned to some serious lapses in judgment (deplorables, emails, etc.). How people can dislike her is not the problem for me. It's how these people can SUPPORT Trump! If President Obama had even thought about saying or doing pretty much anything Donald has said and done over the last 12 months he would have been run out of town. I mean, the list of detestable things Trump has said and done cannot even begin to be touched in any reasonable-length blog post, they're simply too many. And maybe it's wrong of me to think like this, but I'm not as surprised by people who don't claim adherence to the teachings of Jesus as their moral compass, BUT I AM BY THE PEOPLE WHO DO!!! The hypocrisy was evidenced almost immediately after the election in calls for people to 'finally' come together in unity. Hearing the same people who have done everything they could to oppose President Obama for eight years sounding the call toward oneness now that THEIR party is in the White House.... Well, let's just say it cast a long shadow.

Honestly, I find it sad to admit that I have lost a lot of respect for people I used to admire. I unfriended a number of people on Facebook. I know there's a popular meme going around that many don't unfriend people over politics or because they disagree. I wish I were that mature. Which brings me to the most disappointing thing for me about this whole ordeal......

My Reaction
It's no secret that I liked, and still like, President Obama. No, I don't agree with him on a lot of things, but I like him as the person I've been allowed to see and know him as. I'm also not ashamed to admit that I tend to lean a little left in my politics. My parents were democrats for as long as I can remember. I still don't understand why it is so seeminly un-Christian and even un-American to be a democrat. And I'm not even a true democrat. I've voted both ways and even third party many times. I don't claim to be a part of any particular party.

I guess I thought I was more at peace with things than I really was. I thought I was prepared to accept whatever the voters of America decided and not let it bother me or affect my daily life. However, now I'm wondering if I was more at peace with the idea of Hillary Clinton being president, than with just anybody. Not only that, but the governors and senators and congressman too.

So I felt like quite the hypocrite when I got up Wednesday morning and felt my heart sink into my stomach. I couldn't function for half the day. I'm hesitant to admit that I was even a little afraid for awhile. I just didn't think I would react so negatively. The fear was soon followed by anger and I was ashamed of myself. I had been sucked in and I wasn't even aware.

I suppose at this point I am into the grief stage of acceptance. The fear and anger are gone, and while there is still much that mystifies my little mind, I realize life will go on. But of all that went on in this election, the thing I was most disappointed in was myself. I wanted to be better than that. I wanted to take it in stride. I wanted to stand on the Solid Rock of Jesus and not be tossed about by the waives of emotion. But.... such is my life.

I know now I will get by. I don't really believe things will be as bad as many fear they will. Yet, at the same time, I'm also reminded that simply voting in an election is one of the easiest and perhaps least meaningful things we regular people can do to impact our culture. Who resides in the White House does not change anything about how I go about my life. It does not change the source of my strength or the moral compass I strive to follow. If anything, perhaps a Trump White House (or even Pence) might serve to shed some light on the difference between civil religion and that of Jesus Christ.

Things will likely be worse than some think. Things will probably not be as bad as others think. And I doubt I will ever know as much as I think I do. It's a crazy world out there, my friends. Peace out; and in.